we watched this documentary tonight about sexual violence on women and girls in the democratic republic of congo (former zaire).
there are no words for this.
The bodies of women and girls always have been battlefields in wars,
cos with destroying women, nobody wants to marry them, nobody takes care of the farming,
the kids get traumatized- it´s in fact a very effective way of destroying a whole community and society.
They have hospitals where women can get medical help, they can only take "the hard cases" as there are so many who have suffered and still suffering sexual violence. After the hospital they have to send the women back home, again in danger:
"there is no where we can go"
The leader of the hospital said; if the international society knows of this, the UN, and all kinds of media have written about this dramatic situation, how can it just stay like that?
Everybody knows about it, and nothing changes.
This is where we sit again, f* don´t know what to say or do
this is a homepage giving some information about, there is also a petition to sign
in the meantime it just feels so fake thinking about a current discussion about a phenomena called "new feminism" taking place in Germany
it started with some books called "alphagirls", etc.
the main threads seemed to be like:
- the twenty/thirty-something girls woke up and realised, hey we don´t feel unequal treated anymore, but there are much more subtile structures of discrimination nowadays- find out about and act against
- old feminist stuff is not hip- Alice Schwarzer (one of THE feminist icons of Germany) is out and not up to date; the new feminists want it to be fun, be sexy (porn is ok) and still want to claim equality
- how the heck to put having kids, drinking caffe latte with friends and making career in a 24 hour day, (and to look good in the same time)
-...
Important points so far:
Read two critisisms of this "movement" lately:
1: feminism light: the autor claims the new feminsim is kind of wannabe
- it stays just wannabe-provocative in the sex-corner
- or gets caught by the "nice girl trap" (girl still want men to approve them- so they bring on appealing behaviour again, as they have learned and always done it)
2. Mely Kiyak critisises the new feminism as far away from reality
and just a debate from christian, white, middle-class women who think about which kindergarden is best or if parental leave fits together with their life plans
forgetting that there is quite big group of women in the country who are not eben able to ask those questions as they only fight for enough money to live, being allowed to go studying, or getting out of violent relationships.
priviledged women write about feminism, without taking the battle especially of migrant women into consideration, which is often also a battle of class and ethnicity than just gender.
in the new we-women-feeling, those were left out who were not considered as "we" anyway?
i´m off to suomi
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
now
the other afternoon
´ve been sitting with a friend on my cosy couch trying to finish some papers
we just all had some nice summer lunch
cooked potatoes, "quark", fresh vegetables and some smoked salmon
love it
with six girls
like nearly every day
thought about how much it has become a lifestyle of us
to work, eat, shop, go running,... together
´ve been sitting with a friend on my cosy couch trying to finish some papers
we just all had some nice summer lunch
cooked potatoes, "quark", fresh vegetables and some smoked salmon
love it
with six girls
like nearly every day
thought about how much it has become a lifestyle of us
to work, eat, shop, go running,... together
and how it can be so home, ordinary, yet special
but also hard, sometimes, to allow people being close to you
we´ve been some days in beautiful france, bourgogne
small car, small house in the mountains, some girls, good food
loads of garlic and wine
no make-up and being as loud as we want to
yes, good days
but also hard, sometimes, to allow people being close to you
we´ve been some days in beautiful france, bourgogne
small car, small house in the mountains, some girls, good food
loads of garlic and wine
no make-up and being as loud as we want to
yes, good days
got a new link: zimmer 117 is a group of photographers
from this city and the capital
some are friends
all are talented indeed
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
´ve been a weekend in northern Germany
meeting my old living commune from HH
and dear friends Resa and Krister on their trip
round the baltic sea, - nice and chill time
also great to get to know the 24-7-community there
so hospitable
it´s been really interesting to hear about their plans...
on the trip back i went with a guy
who drove 250 on the highway (yes i like that)
and teached me about all the mistakes other car-drivers
do- feel much more smart now
back here
got a really bad cold, have no clue where from
and it really sucks as i have so much stuff to do:(
anyway, hope it will get better soon
and i also hope i soon will start studying effectively again:)
meeting my old living commune from HH
and dear friends Resa and Krister on their trip
round the baltic sea, - nice and chill time
also great to get to know the 24-7-community there
so hospitable
it´s been really interesting to hear about their plans...
on the trip back i went with a guy
who drove 250 on the highway (yes i like that)
and teached me about all the mistakes other car-drivers
do- feel much more smart now
back here
got a really bad cold, have no clue where from
and it really sucks as i have so much stuff to do:(
anyway, hope it will get better soon
and i also hope i soon will start studying effectively again:)
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
planting
planted some more herbs, flowers, chillies and zucchini today
small balcony, - will see if it gets enough sun to grow
planting makes the day to a productive one
some friends and i spent the weekend at a wonderful
organic little farm a living commune keeps together,
really like those places where you can feel some people came together to
make a life thats meaningful to them ...
we had there some training for organizing and leading workcamps
if you are interested in taking part in the work camp
you can email me and i give you more information :)
(taking place between the 2nd and 16th of August in Germany
Topic: seeking asylum- unknown neighbors
for taking part you need to be between 18 and 26 years old
- a workcamp means living together with an international groups
for some weeks and doing some meaningful work-)
small balcony, - will see if it gets enough sun to grow
planting makes the day to a productive one
some friends and i spent the weekend at a wonderful
organic little farm a living commune keeps together,
really like those places where you can feel some people came together to
make a life thats meaningful to them ...
we had there some training for organizing and leading workcamps
if you are interested in taking part in the work camp
you can email me and i give you more information :)
(taking place between the 2nd and 16th of August in Germany
Topic: seeking asylum- unknown neighbors
for taking part you need to be between 18 and 26 years old
- a workcamp means living together with an international groups
for some weeks and doing some meaningful work-)
Friday, May 09, 2008
may...
had some interesting days with mongolian youthworkers
i wrote their names on my hand to be able to remember them
beautiful language
sounds like a mixture of finish and icelandic i thought
super nice people, and cool humour
we talked about the current challenges for young people in mongolia
an new increasing problem trafficking seems to be, to China, Hong Kong and Taiwan
would be interesting to visit this country one day
read recently in some of those blogs
http://blogsbyiranians.com/
Iran has a really active blogging scene, which is quite engaged and respectless
" Here i am again,after a rather long time i feel i can write again.Tehran is so hot. 42c today and will be 44 tomorrow. i cant stand my clothes, this nasty hijab bothers me everyday and every minute and every moment of the day! hurts my body and my soul. but it doesnt keep me from being active, im not dead tired yet.i go to work everyday, while my male colleagues wear cool Tshirts, i have to stand my heavy warm dark long clothes. i also dont forget to wear my mask, a kind of behaviour mask, showing yourself what you really are not! the first thing you learn in iran is how to "Pretend!". its more essential for life than water is! you choose a kind of role that keeps you safe. like the one i chose, a calm serious girl who doesnt think of anything but her work, someone who obeys well with a very simple routine life! and god! how much i hate telling lie! its so difficult to play the role you are not! little by little, you find out that all other people around you are wearing masks too, and you see eachother everyday and work in the same place but never have the chance of knowing eachother truly. the hope for finding real friends is lost for ever. life is so artificial. no smell, no color, no beauty." by http://iranian-girl.blogspot.com/ (from July 16th 2005)
lazy afternoon with taggging "the notwist" in the last fm-radio
so good to have the girls here
so freeing to scream around harsh songlyrics together in the eves
when its necessary
anybody going to Roskilde festival?
i wrote their names on my hand to be able to remember them
beautiful language
sounds like a mixture of finish and icelandic i thought
super nice people, and cool humour
we talked about the current challenges for young people in mongolia
an new increasing problem trafficking seems to be, to China, Hong Kong and Taiwan
would be interesting to visit this country one day
read recently in some of those blogs
http://blogsbyiranians.com/
Iran has a really active blogging scene, which is quite engaged and respectless
" Here i am again,after a rather long time i feel i can write again.Tehran is so hot. 42c today and will be 44 tomorrow. i cant stand my clothes, this nasty hijab bothers me everyday and every minute and every moment of the day! hurts my body and my soul. but it doesnt keep me from being active, im not dead tired yet.i go to work everyday, while my male colleagues wear cool Tshirts, i have to stand my heavy warm dark long clothes. i also dont forget to wear my mask, a kind of behaviour mask, showing yourself what you really are not! the first thing you learn in iran is how to "Pretend!". its more essential for life than water is! you choose a kind of role that keeps you safe. like the one i chose, a calm serious girl who doesnt think of anything but her work, someone who obeys well with a very simple routine life! and god! how much i hate telling lie! its so difficult to play the role you are not! little by little, you find out that all other people around you are wearing masks too, and you see eachother everyday and work in the same place but never have the chance of knowing eachother truly. the hope for finding real friends is lost for ever. life is so artificial. no smell, no color, no beauty." by http://iranian-girl.blogspot.com/ (from July 16th 2005)
lazy afternoon with taggging "the notwist" in the last fm-radio
so good to have the girls here
so freeing to scream around harsh songlyrics together in the eves
when its necessary
anybody going to Roskilde festival?
Thursday, April 24, 2008
sun is coming
yippie yay
had the other weekend some kind of "arty-party" in our house
was so nice
loads of people
dancefloor in the kitchen
with drum´n´bass and Balkan music
photoexhibition
collective painting in one room
a friend did some readings from his writings in the other
a sticker action
videos
making origami out of EKG-paper
flashed with happiness
currently we are about to organize a seminar on
"challenges in international social work"
the participants are from Luxemburg and Mongolia
if thats not exotic... :)
have to write a paper about an
interesting aspect of elementary education
found somewhere in Europe
could also be concerning older kids...
Any ideas?
yippie yay
had the other weekend some kind of "arty-party" in our house
was so nice
loads of people
dancefloor in the kitchen
with drum´n´bass and Balkan music
photoexhibition
collective painting in one room
a friend did some readings from his writings in the other
a sticker action
videos
making origami out of EKG-paper
flashed with happiness
currently we are about to organize a seminar on
"challenges in international social work"
the participants are from Luxemburg and Mongolia
if thats not exotic... :)
have to write a paper about an
interesting aspect of elementary education
found somewhere in Europe
could also be concerning older kids...
Any ideas?
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
productivity
a phase of (in my opinion) extreme unproductivity hopefully slowly seems to end
we declared the word "productivity" to the "un-word" of our living commune
scientist might call this lazyness "procrastination"
BUT
there´s a great song of the german band Tocotronic
" ...ja ich habe heute nichts gemacht,
ja meine Arbeit ist vollbracht,
ich atme nur
ich atme nur..."
("...yes i´ve done nothing today,
yes my work is completed
i just breathe,
i just breathe...")
it´s fun to be on parties trying to smalltalk without the question
"And what are you doing?"
Good alternatives:
Have you already eaten today?
Any siblings?
How did you get to know each other?
we declared the word "productivity" to the "un-word" of our living commune
scientist might call this lazyness "procrastination"
BUT
there´s a great song of the german band Tocotronic
" ...ja ich habe heute nichts gemacht,
ja meine Arbeit ist vollbracht,
ich atme nur
ich atme nur..."
("...yes i´ve done nothing today,
yes my work is completed
i just breathe,
i just breathe...")
it´s fun to be on parties trying to smalltalk without the question
"And what are you doing?"
Good alternatives:
Have you already eaten today?
Any siblings?
How did you get to know each other?
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
I´m a feminist
last saturday was womens day
the news remembered:
in europe Statistics show that for women between 16 and 44 years of age, domestic violence is thought to be the major cause of death and invalidity, ahead of cancer, road accidents and even war.
hellloooooooooo?
this basicly means: home (and a love relationship) is the most dangerous place where a women can be...
isn´t that shocking
besides:
statistics show that in Germany women still earn 25% less then men, though they are better educated, have better qualifications then men and so forth,
I´m not talking about the issue of women having more part time jobs and men being more often in the leading offices, NO!
Its usual that a women with the same qualification and experince as a man, having the exact same job, tasks, role and position, yes in the same company!- often get up to 500 or 600€ less payment than men. And women simply get offered less payment already at job interviews than men, just because. Because why?
People see reasons for this in the old role picture, the image that women only need to earn supplementary payment, ect. And companies use women to simply not to have that many staff expenses i guess.
YES, its time for a new feminism. With this I don´t mean women trying to be like men, anti-men thinking or stuff like that.
According to the Encyclopedia Britannica feminism is simply the belief in the social, economic, and political equality of the sexes. So hard?
Equality is actually not enough, we need the same appreciation and acknowledgement for women than for men. And we need more male feminists, this is not just a cause for women to fight for themselves. We need protection.
And especially "the christian world" has to take a very clear stand in that. To long violence was not discussed, feminism was seen as "bad", and unjust actions were tolerated under the belief that women should submit to men. Come on! Submission is a different discussion. This is about equal treatment, and basicly the right to live.
...
the news remembered:
in europe Statistics show that for women between 16 and 44 years of age, domestic violence is thought to be the major cause of death and invalidity, ahead of cancer, road accidents and even war.
hellloooooooooo?
this basicly means: home (and a love relationship) is the most dangerous place where a women can be...
isn´t that shocking
besides:
statistics show that in Germany women still earn 25% less then men, though they are better educated, have better qualifications then men and so forth,
I´m not talking about the issue of women having more part time jobs and men being more often in the leading offices, NO!
Its usual that a women with the same qualification and experince as a man, having the exact same job, tasks, role and position, yes in the same company!- often get up to 500 or 600€ less payment than men. And women simply get offered less payment already at job interviews than men, just because. Because why?
People see reasons for this in the old role picture, the image that women only need to earn supplementary payment, ect. And companies use women to simply not to have that many staff expenses i guess.
YES, its time for a new feminism. With this I don´t mean women trying to be like men, anti-men thinking or stuff like that.
According to the Encyclopedia Britannica feminism is simply the belief in the social, economic, and political equality of the sexes. So hard?
Equality is actually not enough, we need the same appreciation and acknowledgement for women than for men. And we need more male feminists, this is not just a cause for women to fight for themselves. We need protection.
And especially "the christian world" has to take a very clear stand in that. To long violence was not discussed, feminism was seen as "bad", and unjust actions were tolerated under the belief that women should submit to men. Come on! Submission is a different discussion. This is about equal treatment, and basicly the right to live.
...
Monday, February 25, 2008
sina mina
times have been lazy but intense
had some great days in Denmark
so nice to meet again with friends there
so nice to bike around in the city
with radioheads in rainbows in my ears
to speak Danish
another unforgettable tjilipop night
thanks
but the atmosphere on the streets was kind of strange some days
there were some new demos and small riots going on because
the moslem population felt offended by the newspapers reprinting the muhammed-caricatures
of Kurt Westergaard, and there was also this case going on with two man who got arrested for planning to kill Kurt Westergaard, big issue cos on according to the danish anti-terror act they can just be deported without a court hearing.
People, please don´t lets damage our constitutional states by the fear of terror
was just so sad to feel all this negative tension on the street
and there seems no easy way out of it...
besides
fighting with writing papers
cut myself a fringe/bangs (in German "pony")
quote of the week (my flatmate to me) "tabea, you are my private life!"
i also had my dear friend Jocelyn and her husband over for some days
so nice to have some time with them, (i recognise a certain tendency that i don´t get visits from just my friends anymore but them as a couple...)
we jumped around on our huge fortress (you know the difference between a fortress, a fort, a castle and a "burg"?)
Compliment of the week (which my flatmate got on a party): "everybody here just sucks, except of you!"
We should make more compliments to each other...
had some great days in Denmark
so nice to meet again with friends there
so nice to bike around in the city
with radioheads in rainbows in my ears
to speak Danish
another unforgettable tjilipop night
thanks
but the atmosphere on the streets was kind of strange some days
there were some new demos and small riots going on because
the moslem population felt offended by the newspapers reprinting the muhammed-caricatures
of Kurt Westergaard, and there was also this case going on with two man who got arrested for planning to kill Kurt Westergaard, big issue cos on according to the danish anti-terror act they can just be deported without a court hearing.
People, please don´t lets damage our constitutional states by the fear of terror
was just so sad to feel all this negative tension on the street
and there seems no easy way out of it...
besides
fighting with writing papers
cut myself a fringe/bangs (in German "pony")
quote of the week (my flatmate to me) "tabea, you are my private life!"
i also had my dear friend Jocelyn and her husband over for some days
so nice to have some time with them, (i recognise a certain tendency that i don´t get visits from just my friends anymore but them as a couple...)
we jumped around on our huge fortress (you know the difference between a fortress, a fort, a castle and a "burg"?)
Compliment of the week (which my flatmate got on a party): "everybody here just sucks, except of you!"
We should make more compliments to each other...
Monday, February 04, 2008
...
lectures are over and i am, too
since i started to relax some days
it feels like i can´t put myself to any kind of work anymore
sucks!
also all my flatmates left me that weekend, you can´t do that to me
it turns me to a total weirdo trampy girl
its "rosenmontag" and all the annoying carnival stuff is going on
I should really get out of here soon...
since i started to relax some days
it feels like i can´t put myself to any kind of work anymore
sucks!
also all my flatmates left me that weekend, you can´t do that to me
it turns me to a total weirdo trampy girl
its "rosenmontag" and all the annoying carnival stuff is going on
I should really get out of here soon...
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
suomi or how to put 1/1000 of ones daily thoughts in one blogentry
last week i came back from some days in suomi
skipped some days of uni
it was so dark (for me at least) - so those days were a lot of rest
spend some God days on a turku island
tilsammens of 24-7 scandinavia
some reflections...
i felt pretty unprepared this time
and not like i could contribute something
(blabla)
Gods presence was there and it was so good to hear whats going on in the different countries
and yes this time there were some Danes and it was so nice to speak some Danish again with the dry Danish humour as well as hearing new stories
and Iceland/Isisland you kick me off
watch the sigur ros video "heima"
Yes God puts facettes of his whoaaa beauty in different places and people
and the simple sentence "it was beautiful" can mean so much more than usual if an icelandic person is saying it
yes and it feels so right to have those gentle, introverted americans going there
peacefully without having everything planned or managed, takk
i´m excited to hear the news
there was also some prayer about the hospitality of scandinavia which really spoke to me
I thought of those countries like sweden that have taken up so many refugees in history
but it doesnt seem like european policies as well as other current
developments do encourage that...
i believe there is a big responsibility on our countries to be places of refuge
Had also some more days in Helsinki with awesome Laura, Tytti and Milka
the girls gave me such a blast of goodness
we just had loads of sleep, food, laughter, and a beautiful walk on this
on island (suomalainen?) sooooo nice
and the girls even gave me a roadtrip to tampere (thanks to karoliina)
so early in the morning, thats true sacrifice
so I´m at my desk again
worrying about some elections tomorrow
in hessia
the christian- conservatives must not win!
they created so much bad populism around
young migrants,- its just so shameful ...
i so hope they won´t get a sign that they can suceed with this kind of policy
these processes are scary
daily racism in policy you can see
rising up in different countries of europe again
arghh, it makes me throw up
lets be aware of these processes
anyway, nice weekend to you.
my flatmates are so loud.
our new favourite word is:
"erkenntnisresistente Kackbratze!".
AND we will have a curry gathering tonight!
skipped some days of uni
it was so dark (for me at least) - so those days were a lot of rest
spend some God days on a turku island
tilsammens of 24-7 scandinavia
some reflections...
i felt pretty unprepared this time
and not like i could contribute something
(blabla)
Gods presence was there and it was so good to hear whats going on in the different countries
and yes this time there were some Danes and it was so nice to speak some Danish again with the dry Danish humour as well as hearing new stories
and Iceland/Isisland you kick me off
watch the sigur ros video "heima"
Yes God puts facettes of his whoaaa beauty in different places and people
and the simple sentence "it was beautiful" can mean so much more than usual if an icelandic person is saying it
yes and it feels so right to have those gentle, introverted americans going there
peacefully without having everything planned or managed, takk
i´m excited to hear the news
there was also some prayer about the hospitality of scandinavia which really spoke to me
I thought of those countries like sweden that have taken up so many refugees in history
but it doesnt seem like european policies as well as other current
developments do encourage that...
i believe there is a big responsibility on our countries to be places of refuge
Had also some more days in Helsinki with awesome Laura, Tytti and Milka
the girls gave me such a blast of goodness
we just had loads of sleep, food, laughter, and a beautiful walk on this
on island (suomalainen?) sooooo nice
and the girls even gave me a roadtrip to tampere (thanks to karoliina)
so early in the morning, thats true sacrifice
so I´m at my desk again
worrying about some elections tomorrow
in hessia
the christian- conservatives must not win!
they created so much bad populism around
young migrants,- its just so shameful ...
i so hope they won´t get a sign that they can suceed with this kind of policy
these processes are scary
daily racism in policy you can see
rising up in different countries of europe again
arghh, it makes me throw up
lets be aware of these processes
anyway, nice weekend to you.
my flatmates are so loud.
our new favourite word is:
"erkenntnisresistente Kackbratze!".
AND we will have a curry gathering tonight!
new year and stuff like that
2007...
it has been such an ambivalent beast
guess i never worked that hard- and felt like being so lazy at the same time, travelled so much, doubted so much, got amazed so many times,
felt so grown up and small again, bought my first pumps (which i see for myself as some kind of outer indicator in the process filled with hope of becoming a lady ...somewhen)
have been in about 22 different cities/places, residing in 2 countries
moved 3 times
those pathetic numbers cannot show what happened inside me anyway
quite a lot of things still seem unclear
left to say is i´m so thankful
takk
it has been such an ambivalent beast
guess i never worked that hard- and felt like being so lazy at the same time, travelled so much, doubted so much, got amazed so many times,
felt so grown up and small again, bought my first pumps (which i see for myself as some kind of outer indicator in the process filled with hope of becoming a lady ...somewhen)
have been in about 22 different cities/places, residing in 2 countries
moved 3 times
those pathetic numbers cannot show what happened inside me anyway
quite a lot of things still seem unclear
left to say is i´m so thankful
takk
Saturday, December 15, 2007
update needed
the last weeks
feels like i´ve never read, written and presented that much before
but i love my studies
and it´s also amazing to find out how long one is able to concentrate
this will go on until february i guess
have had the priviledge of taking part in a evaluationweekend
of refugee-work-camps somewhere in Frankfurt
was so good to speak a whole weekend English again
makes me happy immediately
was in beautiful strasbourg for a day
visiting a session of the european parliament
about extremism in Europe
really interesting
and unbelivable that those parties don´t invite experts in exremism studies
but rather argue about their own opinions what the reasons for extremism might be
slowly starting to realise that its christmas time
I still don´t really know what to do with this:)
Maybe its only nice for some people:
children, grannies who love baking, people who like to hang in cafes
but not for waitresses and shop assistants
I´m going to move next month
ina really cool old non-renovated flat (yes)
where some of my mates already live
the wallpapers are still original 70´s
i miss, miss, miss, miss
Denmark, Denmark, Denmark,
and a whole lot of friends
happy next week
feels like i´ve never read, written and presented that much before
but i love my studies
and it´s also amazing to find out how long one is able to concentrate
this will go on until february i guess
have had the priviledge of taking part in a evaluationweekend
of refugee-work-camps somewhere in Frankfurt
was so good to speak a whole weekend English again
makes me happy immediately
was in beautiful strasbourg for a day
visiting a session of the european parliament
about extremism in Europe
really interesting
and unbelivable that those parties don´t invite experts in exremism studies
but rather argue about their own opinions what the reasons for extremism might be
slowly starting to realise that its christmas time
I still don´t really know what to do with this:)
Maybe its only nice for some people:
children, grannies who love baking, people who like to hang in cafes
but not for waitresses and shop assistants
I´m going to move next month
ina really cool old non-renovated flat (yes)
where some of my mates already live
the wallpapers are still original 70´s
i miss, miss, miss, miss
Denmark, Denmark, Denmark,
and a whole lot of friends
happy next week
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
November
time is too busy right now
so much stuff to do for uni
and i can´t say no to all the other interesting things
I tried making a "kladdkaka" (the most wonderful chocolatecake in the world-from sweden)
it didn´t turn out that nice. Does anybody have a "functions always"-recipe?
was at a lecture about capitalism -critisism, was so good
hopefully more about it later.
The EU plans to introduce a common asylum-practice
until 2010,- so these days a lot of decisions are being made concerning this issue
lets stay tuned on http://www.no-fortress-europe.eu/showPage.jsp
- there are also petition you can sign
because i don´t want the European Union doing inhuman refugee and asylumpolitics in my name!
so much stuff to do for uni
and i can´t say no to all the other interesting things
I tried making a "kladdkaka" (the most wonderful chocolatecake in the world-from sweden)
it didn´t turn out that nice. Does anybody have a "functions always"-recipe?
was at a lecture about capitalism -critisism, was so good
hopefully more about it later.
The EU plans to introduce a common asylum-practice
until 2010,- so these days a lot of decisions are being made concerning this issue
lets stay tuned on http://www.no-fortress-europe.eu/showPage.jsp
- there are also petition you can sign
because i don´t want the European Union doing inhuman refugee and asylumpolitics in my name!
Thursday, November 15, 2007
they lately found an american bomb from the 2nd ww in the city center
thousands of people were evacuated
i happened to go through the city center short after
what a ghost city
there are 1,2mio working poor in germany
those are people who work fulltime but have to get extra benefits as
their job doesn´t pay their living expenses
it´s been very rainy the last days
newest projects:
we started learning turkish
and registered for the half-marathon in June
hope we will make it:)
transnationalism produces hybrid identities
thousands of people were evacuated
i happened to go through the city center short after
what a ghost city
there are 1,2mio working poor in germany
those are people who work fulltime but have to get extra benefits as
their job doesn´t pay their living expenses
it´s been very rainy the last days
newest projects:
we started learning turkish
and registered for the half-marathon in June
hope we will make it:)
transnationalism produces hybrid identities
Saturday, November 03, 2007
live and live and live
studying totally got me again,
and i´m so thankful for my studymates
we live nearby, eat together and give hugs when the down-days come
and go running along the rivers
was lately in dear Holland to visit my DK-flatmate larsi-parsi
they prohibited mushrooms in that country 3 weeks ago
(after some people thought they could fly and jumped off buildings)
Germans who sit in cafes all eating and drinking at one table in large groups
and letting the waitress count the exact amount of what they had at 1 in the night
become more and more strange to me
i´ve been at a great wedding, went there with a young soldier who is a DJ for house music and went to play somewhere in Switzerland
he was rude, at first i was speechless, then amused or a bit sad
we talked how his experiences in Afghanistan have made him hard.
always keeping a distance to people
and that politicans in a parliament decide to take part in the afghanistan war and you stand there having to decide if you kill that child with a gun before it kills you
my friend got married to a divorced man with 2 kids
they were so happy, people were dancing to electronic music half the night
and his ex-wife was there dancing and smiling too
I was so impressed
and i´m so thankful for my studymates
we live nearby, eat together and give hugs when the down-days come
and go running along the rivers
was lately in dear Holland to visit my DK-flatmate larsi-parsi
they prohibited mushrooms in that country 3 weeks ago
(after some people thought they could fly and jumped off buildings)
Germans who sit in cafes all eating and drinking at one table in large groups
and letting the waitress count the exact amount of what they had at 1 in the night
become more and more strange to me
i´ve been at a great wedding, went there with a young soldier who is a DJ for house music and went to play somewhere in Switzerland
he was rude, at first i was speechless, then amused or a bit sad
we talked how his experiences in Afghanistan have made him hard.
always keeping a distance to people
and that politicans in a parliament decide to take part in the afghanistan war and you stand there having to decide if you kill that child with a gun before it kills you
my friend got married to a divorced man with 2 kids
they were so happy, people were dancing to electronic music half the night
and his ex-wife was there dancing and smiling too
I was so impressed
Thursday, October 04, 2007
i´m really back in Germany
but still arriving
moved into a little room in a 5 girls living commune
will see how that is working out
got a new job in a cozy cafe, yep
the last days have been filled with meeting with all my dear
returned studymates,
coffee, wine, tea and dinners for hours and loads of stories
it would have been really hard to come back without them
I´m really glad to have the "gang" here and that we will do this last year or more together
and they distract me
i miss Denmark and the people there, of course
met another friend of mine here, who was "accidentially" at the same farm in Portugal i´ve been this summer,- i love those random things
and i have to pay back some studygrants i got for Denmark, because i earned too much money, which i had to earn because i didn´t get enough grants,- is this logical?...anyway, glad for having statesupport
got some interesting lectures like peace-pedagogics and sociology of migration,
looking forward to that...
but still arriving
moved into a little room in a 5 girls living commune
will see how that is working out
got a new job in a cozy cafe, yep
the last days have been filled with meeting with all my dear
returned studymates,
coffee, wine, tea and dinners for hours and loads of stories
it would have been really hard to come back without them
I´m really glad to have the "gang" here and that we will do this last year or more together
and they distract me
i miss Denmark and the people there, of course
met another friend of mine here, who was "accidentially" at the same farm in Portugal i´ve been this summer,- i love those random things
and i have to pay back some studygrants i got for Denmark, because i earned too much money, which i had to earn because i didn´t get enough grants,- is this logical?...anyway, glad for having statesupport
got some interesting lectures like peace-pedagogics and sociology of migration,
looking forward to that...
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
life goes on
was back in my studytown for a few day looking for a new job and living-commune
i don´t like living- commune- casting, we don´t know which questions to ask
what you wear can qualify or disqualify you
and maybe the colour of the kitchen wall is not your thing
but in fact I´m glad that so many people in Germany want to share lifes
figured its not that ususal in other countries
already in my studytown about 150 living communes look for new flatmates
but right now its time for "hometown", some brother-hugs, moms plum-pie, and just hanging out with old friends
you can go to www.avaaz.org to sign some petitions concerning the situation in Darfur and Iraq
was back in my studytown for a few day looking for a new job and living-commune
i don´t like living- commune- casting, we don´t know which questions to ask
what you wear can qualify or disqualify you
and maybe the colour of the kitchen wall is not your thing
but in fact I´m glad that so many people in Germany want to share lifes
figured its not that ususal in other countries
already in my studytown about 150 living communes look for new flatmates
but right now its time for "hometown", some brother-hugs, moms plum-pie, and just hanging out with old friends
you can go to www.avaaz.org to sign some petitions concerning the situation in Darfur and Iraq
Saturday, September 01, 2007
Schweden, Dänemark, Deutschland - ich weiß ja gar nicht wohin
listening to some German music
"... aber hier leben, nein danke..."
(...but to live here, no thank you...)
from THE german band tocotronic
i figured how long i haven´t listenened to german music
and how so many bands write that poetic and play in this way
that it really expresses the "Lebensgefühl" here
spent some easy and nice days in stockholm with resa and krister
gardening is a nice thing, windowshopping as well (sometimes)
went also biking on aaland for a day, but it was just so rainy
got to know a girl from burundi on the night bus
some last coffee with my dear dk-friends
and i took my stuff and left
can´t comprehend the moving, it still feels like travelling
spending some days now with my ex-livingcommune
like we used to, have to post some picture of this tiny wonderful flat
"... aber hier leben, nein danke..."
(...but to live here, no thank you...)
from THE german band tocotronic
i figured how long i haven´t listenened to german music
and how so many bands write that poetic and play in this way
that it really expresses the "Lebensgefühl" here
spent some easy and nice days in stockholm with resa and krister
gardening is a nice thing, windowshopping as well (sometimes)
went also biking on aaland for a day, but it was just so rainy
got to know a girl from burundi on the night bus
some last coffee with my dear dk-friends
and i took my stuff and left
can´t comprehend the moving, it still feels like travelling
spending some days now with my ex-livingcommune
like we used to, have to post some picture of this tiny wonderful flat
the kitchen, mini-garden (we have to plant more everywhere we live!)
and the profiles of our stomaches in the bathroom...
and the profiles of our stomaches in the bathroom...
strange to hear german all around me again,
how different people express themselves
and some pics of my first stancel (?)...
it was a copy from a recordcover, i have to admit
how different people express themselves
and some pics of my first stancel (?)...
it was a copy from a recordcover, i have to admit
Monday, August 20, 2007
love.leave
last working day
yes i got a bit tired of being a waitress the last weeks
but i can be thankful for having a job anyways,
just added the blogs of 3 of my dear girly friends
who i got to know here
helena, jo and jessy i appreciate you a lot
so much tea and coffee together the last days
this is a long goodbye process
made the night through in Malmø with a friend the other day
free festival, slagsmålsklubben whooaa,
Asha Ali and Balkan Beat Box- an amazing band
mixing electronic music with gypsie, klezmer, arabian
whatever, local- ghetto- rap- heros, very interesting
landed later in a punk- rockabilly-club, just because it was for free
stranded talking in broken German-Swedish
with the local shawarma guy for on hour and
nice black coffee in plasticcups,
all because we wanted chocolate milk and they haven´t had change for about 10 minutes
...funny, how I´m always so much more open to just meet people
when I´m "somewhere else"
precious
heading for more scandinavia maybe tomorrow
try to make all my stuff fit in 3 boxes
mmh
yes i got a bit tired of being a waitress the last weeks
but i can be thankful for having a job anyways,
just added the blogs of 3 of my dear girly friends
who i got to know here
helena, jo and jessy i appreciate you a lot
so much tea and coffee together the last days
this is a long goodbye process
made the night through in Malmø with a friend the other day
free festival, slagsmålsklubben whooaa,
Asha Ali and Balkan Beat Box- an amazing band
mixing electronic music with gypsie, klezmer, arabian
whatever, local- ghetto- rap- heros, very interesting
landed later in a punk- rockabilly-club, just because it was for free
stranded talking in broken German-Swedish
with the local shawarma guy for on hour and
nice black coffee in plasticcups,
all because we wanted chocolate milk and they haven´t had change for about 10 minutes
...funny, how I´m always so much more open to just meet people
when I´m "somewhere else"
precious
heading for more scandinavia maybe tomorrow
try to make all my stuff fit in 3 boxes
mmh
Monday, August 13, 2007
Når det sker...
people can turn into machines while working in a restaurant
closed the restaurant the other day,
its always this strange feeling, me and the restaurant alone at night
then went to see the end of a shortfilm in a park
it was about to swedish journalists in an african country documenting violent riots going on
and what happens with them while they are there, how it makes one crazy to see people die
the movie ends as they get controlled on their way by some rebells
they just got shot and that was it
walked home and passed a shop where they sell out wedding dresses
50% reduction
what a bargain
passed a turkish bakery where you can print your picture on your cake
I saw someone playing on a singer songwriter stage
he totally captured people
today i have time, ...so nice
closed the restaurant the other day,
its always this strange feeling, me and the restaurant alone at night
then went to see the end of a shortfilm in a park
it was about to swedish journalists in an african country documenting violent riots going on
and what happens with them while they are there, how it makes one crazy to see people die
the movie ends as they get controlled on their way by some rebells
they just got shot and that was it
walked home and passed a shop where they sell out wedding dresses
50% reduction
what a bargain
passed a turkish bakery where you can print your picture on your cake
I saw someone playing on a singer songwriter stage
he totally captured people
today i have time, ...so nice
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
nowhere, now here
in the city again since a while
was strange coming back without coming home
so many people left
but I´m glad i found a room for some weeks
will still work a bit at the restaurant
do lots of bureaucratic paperstuff exchange years require
and enjoy some summer here
the south was so nice
but to bike again at a rather fresh summer evening
through the city with this light feels just so good
what i also learned:
its certainly possible to travel 28h by train straight
and a good question is:
"when these buildings are so beautiful, why are people not make all buildings that beautiful?"
(a guy in spain told me he asked this question to his mum when he was little and spend a lot of time in the hospital Sant Pao,- which consists of amazing fairytale modernistic buildings)
pancakes at night is right
was strange coming back without coming home
so many people left
but I´m glad i found a room for some weeks
will still work a bit at the restaurant
do lots of bureaucratic paperstuff exchange years require
and enjoy some summer here
the south was so nice
but to bike again at a rather fresh summer evening
through the city with this light feels just so good
what i also learned:
its certainly possible to travel 28h by train straight
and a good question is:
"when these buildings are so beautiful, why are people not make all buildings that beautiful?"
(a guy in spain told me he asked this question to his mum when he was little and spend a lot of time in the hospital Sant Pao,- which consists of amazing fairytale modernistic buildings)
pancakes at night is right
Thursday, July 26, 2007
barrrrrrrrr the lona
i am red as a shrimp
i can't believe the hospitality i meet
so non-materialistic and non-posessive
can learn so much here
a random friend i haven't seen for years
offered me to stay in her paris-flat while shes not there
whooa
a "maid"(?) made my laundry
it makes me happy to see couples that are so smooth together
and to be with people that love to show their city
and to see beautiful people
i was hungry for music (tooo much background -TV in this country)
and la buena vida is the perfect siesta melody
i have hope that my skin turns brown one day
i have hope that we will get more peaceful the more we travel
i have hope to be able to live like a lady and a tramp
both with grace and gratitude
to travel away all fears
lala
i can't believe the hospitality i meet
so non-materialistic and non-posessive
can learn so much here
a random friend i haven't seen for years
offered me to stay in her paris-flat while shes not there
whooa
a "maid"(?) made my laundry
it makes me happy to see couples that are so smooth together
and to be with people that love to show their city
and to see beautiful people
i was hungry for music (tooo much background -TV in this country)
and la buena vida is the perfect siesta melody
i have hope that my skin turns brown one day
i have hope that we will get more peaceful the more we travel
i have hope to be able to live like a lady and a tramp
both with grace and gratitude
to travel away all fears
lala
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Obrigado
had some intense days
with sleeping on the streets of madrid
or on random portugese fields
" getting totally lost is a good thing..."
walking and walking and walking
siestas in a hangmat
getting excited about beautiful mediterian tiles
shanti, shanti and garden work
irish music at bonfires
so good conversations
and finding myself again and again
in places and situations where i wake up asking
is this me whos allowed to experience all that
i am challenged, partly annoyed
and glad again, so much to think about
days without make-up and physical work
were good for me
obrigado barbara and tom
right now at the mediterian coast
hospitality from a studymate again
spend some hours at the beach
havent done that for years
waves are something nice
beachculture still feels foreign to me
4 more days
with sleeping on the streets of madrid
or on random portugese fields
" getting totally lost is a good thing..."
walking and walking and walking
siestas in a hangmat
getting excited about beautiful mediterian tiles
shanti, shanti and garden work
irish music at bonfires
so good conversations
and finding myself again and again
in places and situations where i wake up asking
is this me whos allowed to experience all that
i am challenged, partly annoyed
and glad again, so much to think about
days without make-up and physical work
were good for me
obrigado barbara and tom
right now at the mediterian coast
hospitality from a studymate again
spend some hours at the beach
havent done that for years
waves are something nice
beachculture still feels foreign to me
4 more days
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
so much these last days
Madrid has been the impression overkill
so many different people
beautiful buildings
been in the Reina Sofia, one of the huge art museums in Madrid with modern to contemporary art
it hosts also the massive artwork of Picasso "Guernica", which he painted in response to the German bombings on this basque (republican) village
didn´t know all these things, didn´t know that Hitler tried to support Franco with bombing Spanish villages
and it feels like every time i travel i learn more about the history of my own country
Germany i can´t get away from you?
Spent the weekend with some spanish friends
somewhere in the solitude of the mountains of Burgos
there took a little creative-hippie-punk-festival place
in a village that became empty and some people try to recreate
a stage somewhere on a lonely rock
houseruins
a tiny church with self-build wooden altar
lots of creative courses over the day
did some ceramics, fimo and balloon animals
so nice to do something with my hands again
concerts at night
and me the only non-spanish speaking person
and i was lacking some dreadlocks
this area was so extremely beautiful
had also some strange days
am about to leave Salamanca now
had a beautiful evening here with some random spanish friends who
visited us once north and invited me for some Paella and going out
had such a nice time with really good talks
strange, how quickly you can click with people
gracias
Madrid has been the impression overkill
so many different people
beautiful buildings
been in the Reina Sofia, one of the huge art museums in Madrid with modern to contemporary art
it hosts also the massive artwork of Picasso "Guernica", which he painted in response to the German bombings on this basque (republican) village
didn´t know all these things, didn´t know that Hitler tried to support Franco with bombing Spanish villages
and it feels like every time i travel i learn more about the history of my own country
Germany i can´t get away from you?
Spent the weekend with some spanish friends
somewhere in the solitude of the mountains of Burgos
there took a little creative-hippie-punk-festival place
in a village that became empty and some people try to recreate
a stage somewhere on a lonely rock
houseruins
a tiny church with self-build wooden altar
lots of creative courses over the day
did some ceramics, fimo and balloon animals
so nice to do something with my hands again
concerts at night
and me the only non-spanish speaking person
and i was lacking some dreadlocks
this area was so extremely beautiful
had also some strange days
am about to leave Salamanca now
had a beautiful evening here with some random spanish friends who
visited us once north and invited me for some Paella and going out
had such a nice time with really good talks
strange, how quickly you can click with people
gracias
Thursday, July 12, 2007
pink toiletpaper
on the road again
or better on interrail
finally in first time in france
stayed at a friends in Rennes, bretagne
what is it about the french and using pink toiletpaper?
Ate too much whiteflourproducts, the danish would say
we wandered through the city
lot of small old stone houses
cidre and galettes for lunch at a creperi
watching people and being watched at the "street of thirst"
so nice
the talks about life as always
paris drove me crazy, as i had to get from the one big trainstation to the other one
never felt so stupid speaking english
this city leaves the feeling of wanting to conquer it
railed for hours and hours down south
went in Irun at 6 in the morning to a morning bar full of men
for some cafe solo, felt very right
hours through so dry land
mountains
Madrid is far too hot, maybe i will get finally some kind of tan:)
wandered for hours through the city, plaza after plaza after plaza
people stay here on the streets until 1
with their kids on weekdays in lavapies
"maddin" and i talk nearly only social work and immigration
passionate as we used to
so nice to be able to spend some time with my german studymates
we have to go to explore some more city
or better on interrail
finally in first time in france
stayed at a friends in Rennes, bretagne
what is it about the french and using pink toiletpaper?
Ate too much whiteflourproducts, the danish would say
we wandered through the city
lot of small old stone houses
cidre and galettes for lunch at a creperi
watching people and being watched at the "street of thirst"
so nice
the talks about life as always
paris drove me crazy, as i had to get from the one big trainstation to the other one
never felt so stupid speaking english
this city leaves the feeling of wanting to conquer it
railed for hours and hours down south
went in Irun at 6 in the morning to a morning bar full of men
for some cafe solo, felt very right
hours through so dry land
mountains
Madrid is far too hot, maybe i will get finally some kind of tan:)
wandered for hours through the city, plaza after plaza after plaza
people stay here on the streets until 1
with their kids on weekdays in lavapies
"maddin" and i talk nearly only social work and immigration
passionate as we used to
so nice to be able to spend some time with my german studymates
we have to go to explore some more city
Saturday, June 30, 2007
morning conversation
this morning i went into the room of my flatmate
to fold his laundry (yes) just because i needed the "clothdryhangything"
and then he asked me how late it was.
It was just around half past ten, so his reaction:
"so early? is it already sunday or is still saturday?"
me: "no its still saturday"
he: "because, you know, it could be possible because i have these post-its-block with 24 written on the side..."
me: "???"
he: "so it could be possible to sleep 24 hours"
me: "???"
he: "well, what i mean is, you know, sometimes you just wake up and talk crap and you are so convinced the stuff you say makes sense..."
i also kind of moved today
which means i moved some boxes to my flatmates room
which i will store somewhere else the next weeks
moving the next days to a friends summerhouse in suburbia
and then southern europe is calling me
had a week of womenshelter- together- on-holiday,
was fun, especially because my collegues convinced me that I should feel the freedom to phart loudly:)
and had some sorrows with 2 more flatmates leaving
so arrgh! when you got used to live together, and your live is suddenly missing so many small details
and the presence of people you started to love
enjoy the summer
to fold his laundry (yes) just because i needed the "clothdryhangything"
and then he asked me how late it was.
It was just around half past ten, so his reaction:
"so early? is it already sunday or is still saturday?"
me: "no its still saturday"
he: "because, you know, it could be possible because i have these post-its-block with 24 written on the side..."
me: "???"
he: "so it could be possible to sleep 24 hours"
me: "???"
he: "well, what i mean is, you know, sometimes you just wake up and talk crap and you are so convinced the stuff you say makes sense..."
i also kind of moved today
which means i moved some boxes to my flatmates room
which i will store somewhere else the next weeks
moving the next days to a friends summerhouse in suburbia
and then southern europe is calling me
had a week of womenshelter- together- on-holiday,
was fun, especially because my collegues convinced me that I should feel the freedom to phart loudly:)
and had some sorrows with 2 more flatmates leaving
so arrgh! when you got used to live together, and your live is suddenly missing so many small details
and the presence of people you started to love
enjoy the summer
Thursday, June 14, 2007
juno
distortion electronic festival
every day in a different part of the city
in small shops and galleries on the streets in the parks
starting with an opening service in one of the biggest city churches
yep, exactly
with a viking bold head red beard priest
speaking clear words to electronic sounds
about its just love give it away
and respect to god and creation
gladness
the final party on one of the harbour islands
with beach excellent view on the city
and weired music in old factory halls
the masses of people wandering back in the morning
but sun rising at 3 o clock doesnt really push the party feeling
missed lot of these festival days
missed G8
but was glad that the normally conservative prime minister of my country put environment on high agenda
the final party on one of the harbour islands
with beach excellent view on the city
and weired music in old factory halls
the masses of people wandering back in the morning
but sun rising at 3 o clock doesnt really push the party feeling
missed lot of these festival days
missed G8
but was glad that the normally conservative prime minister of my country put environment on high agenda
gladness again
as i read today that germany is getting a new law on foreigners where
so many people living with a "temporary suspension of deportation" finally will be allowed to work
big discussion also in denmark as they got critisised for letting Iraki asylum seekers wait in the asylum camps for years so their psycological constitution gets so bad they are not able to work
my flatmates annoy me, right now someone is shooting me with a water pistol...
i want to hit and hug them all the day
it often feels like i cant bring my life together at all
all these different worlds
when i come home from the women shelter
where we tried to laugh against upcoming fear and where i try to let things not come to close
i come home and can't take stupid boy jokes
i thought guys reading FHM are all "stupid" but that was also arrogant thought
loveable they are
my spanish flatmate woke me up at 4 the other day
telling me he can't sleep and if I'm joining him for a walk
i put a sweater on and we had small fighting about where to go
finally i gave in and followed him to an empty house we thought of checking out a while go
i was tired and cold
we found an open window in the backyard
matrasses and sleeping bags inside and some ungdomshuset tags
i was a bit scared and wanted to go again
com on tabea just lets go upstairs to check out the rooms there
uhyggeligt the danes would say
suddely there were lots of candles leading to the half rotten sunterrace where all my living commune sat with tea in thermo, music and cake wishing me happy birthday as the sun rose
guess that was one of the coolest birthday presents ever...
matrasses and sleeping bags inside and some ungdomshuset tags
i was a bit scared and wanted to go again
com on tabea just lets go upstairs to check out the rooms there
uhyggeligt the danes would say
suddely there were lots of candles leading to the half rotten sunterrace where all my living commune sat with tea in thermo, music and cake wishing me happy birthday as the sun rose
guess that was one of the coolest birthday presents ever...
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Zeit, Tid, Time
too long
masses of letters and emails waiting to be answered
so much happened these last weeks
i'm still doing my internship at the women shelter
and enjoying it
still danish lessons
and a new job at a Japanese restaurant
got more into the topic of human trafficking for my work and also in connection to some documentary night of the international Student fellowship some of my friends started
+ a little bit street action
I had the feeling these small things went well and even if one doesn`t reach thousands with this topic raising awareness in few peoples mind might help
experiment last month (a few times):
just mix totally random people you know from different places in your living commune kitchen and see what happens
had my friend uli from my actuall studytown over, enjoyed long tea sessions again and some time with my small group and dancing, of course
and easter celebration: we cooked eggs, painted each one of them and hid them in the garden to look for them again,- we also made some easter bread and had it with the eggs at brunch
was nice to see how the boys sad all so concentrated painting their eggs
the weekend after a "scandinavian congregation" came over, from finland, norway and sweden.
guys, it was good to have you here: the walking around, reminding me, talks on the sunterrace, naps in the parks, prayers on the bed, the talks we had with other people of the city, ... thank you
Had also some changes in the living commune again, a danish girl living with us for two weeks, a new guy from holland who fits nicely in with his cozy nature, and very new an polish man who is quite older than all of us. I'm feeling really challenged by all of that,- just want to come home after my long days and feel safe. It's just taking me so much enery to get to know new random people and work out a living together, whether you fit together or not. My tolerance is streched and I'm trying right now to find a balance between feeling my needs and making those clear without being the grumpy complaining girl in the house...
Yesterday they had a fight with cooked potatoes in the kitchen, pieces of potatoes at the wall, on the floor,...
this is the chance to learn to get maybe more easy with things (not always), and maybe also to just take up people.
Anyway, I love it that they are just there when i come home, that they built a race track on the kitchen table (with 4 little cars!!!), that they are so hospitable...
I've also been in beloved Dresden the last weekend, my heart ached a bit when i went through my old quarter, and it was nice to join a small girls group i used to be part of and experincing how open and honest they are to each other and how freely they share their thoughts with god.
My friend got married, i felt a bit strange that whole day. It was just all to much to comprehend, the new couples, how friendships changed, and that i still feel that getting married is a pretty extreme thing. And too short time with my family. How do you keep in contact with the people meaning something to you?
This weekend was beautifully slow, some totally free days since weeks. Just slept so much, had BBQ with my flatmates in the park and went to a free concert of Ane Brun and Teitur, so beautiful
- one of the things i love this city for.
It's enough,
i should just sit down and be quiet for a while :)
masses of letters and emails waiting to be answered
so much happened these last weeks
i'm still doing my internship at the women shelter
and enjoying it
still danish lessons
and a new job at a Japanese restaurant
got more into the topic of human trafficking for my work and also in connection to some documentary night of the international Student fellowship some of my friends started
+ a little bit street action
I had the feeling these small things went well and even if one doesn`t reach thousands with this topic raising awareness in few peoples mind might help
experiment last month (a few times):
just mix totally random people you know from different places in your living commune kitchen and see what happens
had my friend uli from my actuall studytown over, enjoyed long tea sessions again and some time with my small group and dancing, of course
and easter celebration: we cooked eggs, painted each one of them and hid them in the garden to look for them again,- we also made some easter bread and had it with the eggs at brunch
was nice to see how the boys sad all so concentrated painting their eggs
the weekend after a "scandinavian congregation" came over, from finland, norway and sweden.
guys, it was good to have you here: the walking around, reminding me, talks on the sunterrace, naps in the parks, prayers on the bed, the talks we had with other people of the city, ... thank you
Had also some changes in the living commune again, a danish girl living with us for two weeks, a new guy from holland who fits nicely in with his cozy nature, and very new an polish man who is quite older than all of us. I'm feeling really challenged by all of that,- just want to come home after my long days and feel safe. It's just taking me so much enery to get to know new random people and work out a living together, whether you fit together or not. My tolerance is streched and I'm trying right now to find a balance between feeling my needs and making those clear without being the grumpy complaining girl in the house...
Yesterday they had a fight with cooked potatoes in the kitchen, pieces of potatoes at the wall, on the floor,...
this is the chance to learn to get maybe more easy with things (not always), and maybe also to just take up people.
Anyway, I love it that they are just there when i come home, that they built a race track on the kitchen table (with 4 little cars!!!), that they are so hospitable...
I've also been in beloved Dresden the last weekend, my heart ached a bit when i went through my old quarter, and it was nice to join a small girls group i used to be part of and experincing how open and honest they are to each other and how freely they share their thoughts with god.
My friend got married, i felt a bit strange that whole day. It was just all to much to comprehend, the new couples, how friendships changed, and that i still feel that getting married is a pretty extreme thing. And too short time with my family. How do you keep in contact with the people meaning something to you?
This weekend was beautifully slow, some totally free days since weeks. Just slept so much, had BBQ with my flatmates in the park and went to a free concert of Ane Brun and Teitur, so beautiful
- one of the things i love this city for.
It's enough,
i should just sit down and be quiet for a while :)
Monday, March 19, 2007
...
one of the ways to keep violence going is to not problematise it, not to act about it, not to talk about it... to distract from it (free translated from Per Isdahl "the meaning of violence")
Danmark as one of the countries taking part in the irak war doesn't want to give asylum to about 600 irakian refugees waiting here in camps for a better life while sweden said yes to take up about 15000 refugees
Right now theres a big discussion in the media that the minister of culture threatened the public TV channel with an email to be less critical in reporting about the irak war
A country where humaniatian issues are/used to be valued extremely high and so the freedom of press...
to grant asylum to people from irak maybe would be an act of recognising that they didn´t suceed in a way they planned until now, that all of this could be wrong...
there´ve been lots of soap bubbles in the kitchen the last days
and an interesting talk with a gran canarian guy about the african immigration issue at a toga-party
Danmark as one of the countries taking part in the irak war doesn't want to give asylum to about 600 irakian refugees waiting here in camps for a better life while sweden said yes to take up about 15000 refugees
Right now theres a big discussion in the media that the minister of culture threatened the public TV channel with an email to be less critical in reporting about the irak war
A country where humaniatian issues are/used to be valued extremely high and so the freedom of press...
to grant asylum to people from irak maybe would be an act of recognising that they didn´t suceed in a way they planned until now, that all of this could be wrong...
there´ve been lots of soap bubbles in the kitchen the last days
and an interesting talk with a gran canarian guy about the african immigration issue at a toga-party
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
by the way
check out the blog of steven
if you are interested in more
information on the riots and backgrounds
if you are interested in more
information on the riots and backgrounds
a veces si, a veces no
it`s been a while
my computer didn`t like to be forced to switch this blog to google
but finally we got forced
anyway, there are some news and thoughts
started a practical placement at a womens shelter for women who have been treated violently mostly from some ex- husband or partner. There are so many things we don't see.
so far it's really been a good time, especially cos the working-environment is really encouraging.
though speaking and listening to Danish all day is challenging.
I'm reading a lot about violence and am realising how much of an issue it actually is or can be in our daily life. How normally it is to get forced with power to do things you actually don't want to,
-the strange feeling in my stomach when i see a policecar.
Some more reflections on that might come later.
By the way,- the 25th of march is freedom day- which is used by the organisation www.stopthetraffik.org as i big action day against human trafficking. Might be good to check out and see what we can do in our local areas.
By reading all these free-newspapers here you can learn so much about the culture here
how people see themselves, what they estimate as important, how their view on problems is.
According to some research the Danes are the most happy people in the world.
(There are also lots of other researches pointing out Nigerians, Australians or Puerto Ricans are the most happy,- but anyway) Danes found that a bit strange and found out due to further research that their happiness is so high because their expectations are so low that they are more often positively surprised. Or maybe people are satisfied with less?
How does this fit together with every 7th Danish schoogirl cutting or damaging herself in other ways?
Do we believe we have to be "happy"?
Whats the difference between joy and happyness?
The riots here calmed down the last 2 days. It was interesting to see how suddenly there was a chance to stand up for something, to really fight, maybe too violently most of these days but beautifully with people demonstrating peacefully with flowers yeaterday,- and people just joined in a country whereelse people don`t seem to have to fight for so much concerning their local area. Where everything seems to run so smoothly.
Got new flatmates again- now we are spanish-italian-indian-israelian- german. The Dinner-times changed to late night, and there is more caring about each other which is great. I can't speak a spanish "r" which makes me, saying the names of my flatmates, sounding hilarious. I started to "waste" lots of time with my flatmates and guests again and i enjoy it- though there are parts when i feel so challenged, when things hit my face- but hope it's all part of a good learning process. gotta go
Another person in the computerroom just offered me a piece of chocolate... nice
my computer didn`t like to be forced to switch this blog to google
but finally we got forced
anyway, there are some news and thoughts
started a practical placement at a womens shelter for women who have been treated violently mostly from some ex- husband or partner. There are so many things we don't see.
so far it's really been a good time, especially cos the working-environment is really encouraging.
though speaking and listening to Danish all day is challenging.
I'm reading a lot about violence and am realising how much of an issue it actually is or can be in our daily life. How normally it is to get forced with power to do things you actually don't want to,
-the strange feeling in my stomach when i see a policecar.
Some more reflections on that might come later.
By the way,- the 25th of march is freedom day- which is used by the organisation www.stopthetraffik.org as i big action day against human trafficking. Might be good to check out and see what we can do in our local areas.
By reading all these free-newspapers here you can learn so much about the culture here
how people see themselves, what they estimate as important, how their view on problems is.
According to some research the Danes are the most happy people in the world.
(There are also lots of other researches pointing out Nigerians, Australians or Puerto Ricans are the most happy,- but anyway) Danes found that a bit strange and found out due to further research that their happiness is so high because their expectations are so low that they are more often positively surprised. Or maybe people are satisfied with less?
How does this fit together with every 7th Danish schoogirl cutting or damaging herself in other ways?
Do we believe we have to be "happy"?
Whats the difference between joy and happyness?
The riots here calmed down the last 2 days. It was interesting to see how suddenly there was a chance to stand up for something, to really fight, maybe too violently most of these days but beautifully with people demonstrating peacefully with flowers yeaterday,- and people just joined in a country whereelse people don`t seem to have to fight for so much concerning their local area. Where everything seems to run so smoothly.
Got new flatmates again- now we are spanish-italian-indian-israelian- german. The Dinner-times changed to late night, and there is more caring about each other which is great. I can't speak a spanish "r" which makes me, saying the names of my flatmates, sounding hilarious. I started to "waste" lots of time with my flatmates and guests again and i enjoy it- though there are parts when i feel so challenged, when things hit my face- but hope it's all part of a good learning process. gotta go
Another person in the computerroom just offered me a piece of chocolate... nice
Monday, February 05, 2007
invisible children
we had lately a documentary night with the international student fellowship
some of my friends started
showed the movie "invisible children" which is basicly a documentary made by 3 young american guys just going to sudan and north uganda to figure out what happended with all the children soldiers there,- they did it without experience, without any organisation and they met hundreds of forgotten kids, hiding every night in busparks to sleep in fear of getting abducted by rebellforces
they didn't want to be the people who will also forget them and started a movement called "invisible children" to mobilise people just not to forget
one of many things i thought at first
how much do i fight for justice?
in the discussion afterwards we found out that actually not many of us ever got involved in things concerning social justice.
I remember the passion i had as a little girl for all kinds of environmental and social things, i would fight my dad as he tried to cut our trees. My friends and i would get so upset about local trashed areas, commiting ourselves to "save" those.
This is still there, in all of us i think. Somehow i feel sometimes I read and studied so much about unbelievable and unacceptable things that i grew so fat of all this knowledge that i can hardly move, - act on it. Is it not our responsibility to raise our voice about every topic we get to know about, which is injust? But often just a feeling of helplessness, not knowing what to do or what would be the right thing to do is left.
....Either the professionals take care of it, yes it's terrible but we can't do anything about it anyway, we have to focus, daily life took it over, we got all used to it ...
I do feel capable of doing smaller things and we should not forget doing those, like Resa is often pointing out on her blog.
What about the big things? In Darfur, Sudan 200'000 people got killed since 2003 and millions were displaced. In an article from IRIN they say that besides that of course the government and rebelgroups have to agree, more international pressure is needed that the situation for the people will not get worse. Since last year december the situation also got more dangerous for the NGO's. I don't understand this conflict. I've been ignorant towards it most of the time.
I have no solutions. But haven't i also been convinced that i would act against ethnic cleansing out of all the history lessons? Not because i have a "special heart" for doing it, just because it has to be done. Because these are people made in Gods image.
Aren't we the international pressure?
How can we put more pressure on our governments to act more this issue? What can we as non-politicians do?
some of my friends started
showed the movie "invisible children" which is basicly a documentary made by 3 young american guys just going to sudan and north uganda to figure out what happended with all the children soldiers there,- they did it without experience, without any organisation and they met hundreds of forgotten kids, hiding every night in busparks to sleep in fear of getting abducted by rebellforces
they didn't want to be the people who will also forget them and started a movement called "invisible children" to mobilise people just not to forget
one of many things i thought at first
how much do i fight for justice?
in the discussion afterwards we found out that actually not many of us ever got involved in things concerning social justice.
I remember the passion i had as a little girl for all kinds of environmental and social things, i would fight my dad as he tried to cut our trees. My friends and i would get so upset about local trashed areas, commiting ourselves to "save" those.
This is still there, in all of us i think. Somehow i feel sometimes I read and studied so much about unbelievable and unacceptable things that i grew so fat of all this knowledge that i can hardly move, - act on it. Is it not our responsibility to raise our voice about every topic we get to know about, which is injust? But often just a feeling of helplessness, not knowing what to do or what would be the right thing to do is left.
....Either the professionals take care of it, yes it's terrible but we can't do anything about it anyway, we have to focus, daily life took it over, we got all used to it ...
I do feel capable of doing smaller things and we should not forget doing those, like Resa is often pointing out on her blog.
What about the big things? In Darfur, Sudan 200'000 people got killed since 2003 and millions were displaced. In an article from IRIN they say that besides that of course the government and rebelgroups have to agree, more international pressure is needed that the situation for the people will not get worse. Since last year december the situation also got more dangerous for the NGO's. I don't understand this conflict. I've been ignorant towards it most of the time.
I have no solutions. But haven't i also been convinced that i would act against ethnic cleansing out of all the history lessons? Not because i have a "special heart" for doing it, just because it has to be done. Because these are people made in Gods image.
Aren't we the international pressure?
How can we put more pressure on our governments to act more this issue? What can we as non-politicians do?
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Hygge
After mentioning this wonderful Danish concept a lot, I found quite a nice description of it...
"-Oh aren't we having a hyggelig time!
When you are in Denmark there's no escaping the phenomenon "hygge" (the adjective form is "hyggelig"). Impossible to translate into English, the word designates a state of being and a feeling of complete satisfaction and relaxation, often in the good company of friends or relatives. Lit candles are an integral part of "hygge", The Danes just love their candles, and when the winter approaches they almost long for this cold and dark season when it's time to light the candles and have a "hyggelig" time.
Danes may "hygge" on their own, but usually it's something you do in company of one or more persons. "Hygge" very often involves eating or drinking of some sort, but it is possible to find Danes who are having a "hyggelig" time just sitting on a bench, without anything else but each other's good company. You don't neccessarily have to be with friends or aquaintances to have a "hyggelig" time,- you may hit it off with complete strangers, who will then immediately become part of the "hygge", perhaps ven without being aware of it. All they know is that when they leave, they'll be filled with a well-being in both body and soul. The "hygge"-concept is hard to explain, but one thing is for certain- it's the Danes' favourite leisure-time activity." from WHERE2GO 2007 International edition
"-Oh aren't we having a hyggelig time!
When you are in Denmark there's no escaping the phenomenon "hygge" (the adjective form is "hyggelig"). Impossible to translate into English, the word designates a state of being and a feeling of complete satisfaction and relaxation, often in the good company of friends or relatives. Lit candles are an integral part of "hygge", The Danes just love their candles, and when the winter approaches they almost long for this cold and dark season when it's time to light the candles and have a "hyggelig" time.
Danes may "hygge" on their own, but usually it's something you do in company of one or more persons. "Hygge" very often involves eating or drinking of some sort, but it is possible to find Danes who are having a "hyggelig" time just sitting on a bench, without anything else but each other's good company. You don't neccessarily have to be with friends or aquaintances to have a "hyggelig" time,- you may hit it off with complete strangers, who will then immediately become part of the "hygge", perhaps ven without being aware of it. All they know is that when they leave, they'll be filled with a well-being in both body and soul. The "hygge"-concept is hard to explain, but one thing is for certain- it's the Danes' favourite leisure-time activity." from WHERE2GO 2007 International edition
Monday, January 29, 2007
flere historier
lately it finally snowed a lot
so much that the sky was bright at 3 in the night
and we went out to have some snowballfight
Nevertheless i bought the first yellow springflowers
and they look kinda nice
i went home from a party one early morning walking with my bike close by as the snow was to high to cycle
an elderly man took a walk with his dog at 6 in the morning he smiled at me and made some funny comment about the weather
thought that was beautiful,
i should try more to smile to people on the streets
a friend teached some good stuff the other day
about deserts which God uses to teach us to be close to him
and that these phases will come again and again.
One picture that really struck me was when he talked about the promised land as a land of milk and honey. Hope i get it together somehow. In Israel about 20% of the country can be used to grow all kinds of stuff and this is also where the honey comes from. The other 80% are dry land, where the sheeps are and the milk. The sheeps survive becuase their shepherds know the right time and places,- those places where early in the morning some small pieces of grass grow, when the sun is rising this grass quickly gets dry. So the sheep are dependent on their shepherd to lead them at the right time to these places to get some food in the desert. These places with the tiny bits of grass coming through the stones are called green pastures in Hebrew. Nothing with vast green land where the sheeps lay and grow fat, and the scripture of psalm 23 on the postcard. Just enough to go on. Talked about how easy we want to go away from the desert cos it seems like its not from god. Cos we think we gotta have it all together and then things have to run well, like if we believe right then God will give us the smooth successful life. And we miss out on his precious teachings. Was so good to hear that,- and it raised awareness in me. Thank you shepherd.
so much that the sky was bright at 3 in the night
and we went out to have some snowballfight
Nevertheless i bought the first yellow springflowers
and they look kinda nice
i went home from a party one early morning walking with my bike close by as the snow was to high to cycle
an elderly man took a walk with his dog at 6 in the morning he smiled at me and made some funny comment about the weather
thought that was beautiful,
i should try more to smile to people on the streets
a friend teached some good stuff the other day
about deserts which God uses to teach us to be close to him
and that these phases will come again and again.
One picture that really struck me was when he talked about the promised land as a land of milk and honey. Hope i get it together somehow. In Israel about 20% of the country can be used to grow all kinds of stuff and this is also where the honey comes from. The other 80% are dry land, where the sheeps are and the milk. The sheeps survive becuase their shepherds know the right time and places,- those places where early in the morning some small pieces of grass grow, when the sun is rising this grass quickly gets dry. So the sheep are dependent on their shepherd to lead them at the right time to these places to get some food in the desert. These places with the tiny bits of grass coming through the stones are called green pastures in Hebrew. Nothing with vast green land where the sheeps lay and grow fat, and the scripture of psalm 23 on the postcard. Just enough to go on. Talked about how easy we want to go away from the desert cos it seems like its not from god. Cos we think we gotta have it all together and then things have to run well, like if we believe right then God will give us the smooth successful life. And we miss out on his precious teachings. Was so good to hear that,- and it raised awareness in me. Thank you shepherd.
Friday, January 19, 2007
stories
i dreamed last night that the european union made the decision to introduce
Dutch as the "school-language" in all european countries, so that it would be cheaper to mainstream all education and to have exchanges...
the theoretical semester is over now, got today my credits for it,
after the last weeks have been so much work with our project about
"social work with members of ethnic minorities in the Danish Folkeskole".
Just learned so much.
The one evening i went home at midnight from the college, carrying the laptop and my broken bike through the city. Just wanted to get home and surely i didn't expected anyone to stop for helping me, maybe because i also would't do it.
At this one crossing there came suddely these 2 man, carrying big bags.
They just stopped and asked: Help you? slawian accent, i think.
I just was really amazed, that they being busy with other stuff, maybe being strangers in this
country just offered me their help. It so reminded me of how easily i get so caught up in my daily busyness that i don't realise anymore whats going on around me, don't recognise my neighbor. How much o life do we miss by this? Please God help us taking the time for each other.
Spend the other day some time again in this part of the city i like so much. It's just so alife, being often in the newspapers called "ghetto", due to its many colourful inhabitants and associated problems.
Nearly everytime i have a look in the shops, buying my fruits and vegetables, i have one or two random talks about where i come from or that black is a nice haircolour. It just makes me so glad being there, the interest, the openeness, the streetlife, the noise. A sign in one shop saying: "Foreigners, please don't leave us alone with the Danes". I like being here together.
We spend the evenings in the flat with candles, wine or tea and telling stories.
From India, Israel and Germany, Kibbuz, childhood in british-indian schools and daily stuff. Yesterday my flatmate from Israel pointed at a photo of a man in the newspaper, and told that she made once coffee for him. It was the leader of the israelian army.
These times are such a priviledge and quite challenging for me. Flatmates who require openness, changing people going in and out our flat, unpredictability, strange days, and the try to make this to some kind of home with a certain feeling of safety.
Feels like my range of actions and behaviour, they ways how i used to deal with people and things don't "work" anymore as i was used to and things just seem to slip my hands. And in all that there is still this wish for community. What if everything works totally different than i expected and what if i expected God to work and be here without seeing "all the conditions"?
Dutch as the "school-language" in all european countries, so that it would be cheaper to mainstream all education and to have exchanges...
the theoretical semester is over now, got today my credits for it,
after the last weeks have been so much work with our project about
"social work with members of ethnic minorities in the Danish Folkeskole".
Just learned so much.
The one evening i went home at midnight from the college, carrying the laptop and my broken bike through the city. Just wanted to get home and surely i didn't expected anyone to stop for helping me, maybe because i also would't do it.
At this one crossing there came suddely these 2 man, carrying big bags.
They just stopped and asked: Help you? slawian accent, i think.
I just was really amazed, that they being busy with other stuff, maybe being strangers in this
country just offered me their help. It so reminded me of how easily i get so caught up in my daily busyness that i don't realise anymore whats going on around me, don't recognise my neighbor. How much o life do we miss by this? Please God help us taking the time for each other.
Spend the other day some time again in this part of the city i like so much. It's just so alife, being often in the newspapers called "ghetto", due to its many colourful inhabitants and associated problems.
Nearly everytime i have a look in the shops, buying my fruits and vegetables, i have one or two random talks about where i come from or that black is a nice haircolour. It just makes me so glad being there, the interest, the openeness, the streetlife, the noise. A sign in one shop saying: "Foreigners, please don't leave us alone with the Danes". I like being here together.
We spend the evenings in the flat with candles, wine or tea and telling stories.
From India, Israel and Germany, Kibbuz, childhood in british-indian schools and daily stuff. Yesterday my flatmate from Israel pointed at a photo of a man in the newspaper, and told that she made once coffee for him. It was the leader of the israelian army.
These times are such a priviledge and quite challenging for me. Flatmates who require openness, changing people going in and out our flat, unpredictability, strange days, and the try to make this to some kind of home with a certain feeling of safety.
Feels like my range of actions and behaviour, they ways how i used to deal with people and things don't "work" anymore as i was used to and things just seem to slip my hands. And in all that there is still this wish for community. What if everything works totally different than i expected and what if i expected God to work and be here without seeing "all the conditions"?
Friday, January 12, 2007
besides
"at fremelske" = to further or encourage
literally translated it means "to love forth"
isn't that beautiful?
literally translated it means "to love forth"
isn't that beautiful?
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
it's pushing the hardest eskimo right off the schlitten (said this self-made-sticker on this german cash-machine)
hope you are all doing well, friends
just really back in DK again
after
trying to hitchhike for 4-5 hours without anybody stopping
arriving after endless seeming hours in town of origin
for lot´s of coffees with friends, talks and stories,- the nice and sad ones
best Kebab ever with free appletea and turkish popmusic (that's how it has to be)
dancing whole night with friends i never did before
mommies cheesesoup at christmas eve
being very huggative with my brothers-
squeezing each other and the one who screams first loses
an american friend which i haven´t seen for 3 years and who is very dear to me, appearing suddenly out of my parents neighbors house
too much to comprehend
realising again, while being with my friends, how much i love them
meeting my dad in the kitchen, as always around 3 in the night with our ususal question "and what do we eat now?"
lack of sleep
travelling to holland with slow trains and cheap ticket, funny to watch how people get connected in their common enemy called german railway
being at a sunday service in holland, amazed by the way how openly people seem to share their things going on in their life with their whole community
feeling safe, feeling insecure
loving the fact that you can go in the small dutch town from house to house to hang out with some random people of church for a tea
trying to figure out friendships- we have a need for safety in our relationships
the hugs, old factories
and a random talk with a girl from iran on the way to DK
went then straight with my projectgroup on a tiny danish fairytale island
staying in an grandmothers house- the whole village lookes like a museum filled with
colourful tiny house sticking to each other with little lamps outside that light the brickstreets at night
got invited sometimes for amazing danish hospitality
it's somehow beautiful to just hang out with "normal danish people" in their houses
we also experienced an island-tradition to the "holy three kings"
the people there just put lights as signs in front of their houses and people totally covered with masks and disguised talking in high voices sad down at the table and the hosts try to find out where they are as they all seem to know each other.
really surreal and funny experience- we were immediately recognised as " what are these strangers doing here?"
I like being back
I'm glad to be here
there is so much goodness to experience
also in all that seeming to be too much for me/us
just really back in DK again
after
trying to hitchhike for 4-5 hours without anybody stopping
arriving after endless seeming hours in town of origin
for lot´s of coffees with friends, talks and stories,- the nice and sad ones
best Kebab ever with free appletea and turkish popmusic (that's how it has to be)
dancing whole night with friends i never did before
mommies cheesesoup at christmas eve
being very huggative with my brothers-
squeezing each other and the one who screams first loses
an american friend which i haven´t seen for 3 years and who is very dear to me, appearing suddenly out of my parents neighbors house
too much to comprehend
realising again, while being with my friends, how much i love them
meeting my dad in the kitchen, as always around 3 in the night with our ususal question "and what do we eat now?"
lack of sleep
travelling to holland with slow trains and cheap ticket, funny to watch how people get connected in their common enemy called german railway
being at a sunday service in holland, amazed by the way how openly people seem to share their things going on in their life with their whole community
feeling safe, feeling insecure
loving the fact that you can go in the small dutch town from house to house to hang out with some random people of church for a tea
trying to figure out friendships- we have a need for safety in our relationships
the hugs, old factories
and a random talk with a girl from iran on the way to DK
went then straight with my projectgroup on a tiny danish fairytale island
staying in an grandmothers house- the whole village lookes like a museum filled with
colourful tiny house sticking to each other with little lamps outside that light the brickstreets at night
got invited sometimes for amazing danish hospitality
it's somehow beautiful to just hang out with "normal danish people" in their houses
we also experienced an island-tradition to the "holy three kings"
the people there just put lights as signs in front of their houses and people totally covered with masks and disguised talking in high voices sad down at the table and the hosts try to find out where they are as they all seem to know each other.
really surreal and funny experience- we were immediately recognised as " what are these strangers doing here?"
I like being back
I'm glad to be here
there is so much goodness to experience
also in all that seeming to be too much for me/us
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
ach, Emo!
Still projectwork-time.
Besides that the conversations between girls
are constantly turning around food.
Told them the other day how there were these punks in
the big german city pointing fingers at me
"look, there's an emo!"
that is just hilarious,- i was wearing a dress with dots.
Some people would have called it "Rockabilly".
Germans love their subcultures...
I'm also not "Straight-edge" (though i like that name)
or a "gothic".
(Guys, not everyone who preferes
to wear black and has black hair is a gothic.
What the heck is a gothic?)
The response of my studymate:
(she was balancing on one leg while saying this,
-her other leg stretched to the sky)
"Well, we don't have that so much here in Denmark.
But i belong to the subculture of the "Sylfides".
These are people who are beautiful and stretchy."
- laying half on the ground laughing and shaking-
In a certain way i feel free to be more "femininelooking"here.
Maybe it's the perceived danish sylfide-feminity-concept.
it can be a pressure to be always "styled"
it can be too much, and sure being feminin
is not just about the outer looks.
But right now i just enjoy it to wear skirts, dresses
and shoes with decent heels (who would have thought i'd ever start doing that)
without feeling to be immediately "categorised".
piger, vi skal danse!
Besides that the conversations between girls
are constantly turning around food.
Told them the other day how there were these punks in
the big german city pointing fingers at me
"look, there's an emo!"
that is just hilarious,- i was wearing a dress with dots.
Some people would have called it "Rockabilly".
Germans love their subcultures...
I'm also not "Straight-edge" (though i like that name)
or a "gothic".
(Guys, not everyone who preferes
to wear black and has black hair is a gothic.
What the heck is a gothic?)
The response of my studymate:
(she was balancing on one leg while saying this,
-her other leg stretched to the sky)
"Well, we don't have that so much here in Denmark.
But i belong to the subculture of the "Sylfides".
These are people who are beautiful and stretchy."
- laying half on the ground laughing and shaking-
In a certain way i feel free to be more "femininelooking"here.
Maybe it's the perceived danish sylfide-feminity-concept.
it can be a pressure to be always "styled"
it can be too much, and sure being feminin
is not just about the outer looks.
But right now i just enjoy it to wear skirts, dresses
and shoes with decent heels (who would have thought i'd ever start doing that)
without feeling to be immediately "categorised".
piger, vi skal danse!
Thursday, December 07, 2006
mothertongue
as i started to think about it
i never liked my mothertongue very much
it seemed too harsh, too structured,
the rythm of speaking not really mine.
A language of war and good to command.
Nevertheless the language i learned first,
which gave meaning to the world i explored.
the last days i've been reading an english translation
from a text of a german philosopher for our project work.
the translator often put the german term in brackets
after the english translation.
Somehow i realised and remembered that German is and was
also formed and influenced by the thinkers and poets.
There exist philosophical words and terms which are hard to translate
into other languages as the translation never really hits the core of its meaning.
A lot of words that signify states of human relationships, morality, consciousness, rationality.
The wish to find exact names for realities and abstractions.
The feminisation of every word for every role a woman could take.
I'm not having too much knowledge about this and i still don't think german is nice sounding.
But somehow it evoked an appreciation in me for the language that might enable me to think in a way no other language could. Which does certainly count for every language.
"Zuwendung"
- translated as unconditional concern-,
to me the word in itself names a movement: turning-to
to turn to someone, look at someone, an attitude of recognition
focus with all your being towards someone
a "i see you and i'm here with you"
i never liked my mothertongue very much
it seemed too harsh, too structured,
the rythm of speaking not really mine.
A language of war and good to command.
Nevertheless the language i learned first,
which gave meaning to the world i explored.
the last days i've been reading an english translation
from a text of a german philosopher for our project work.
the translator often put the german term in brackets
after the english translation.
Somehow i realised and remembered that German is and was
also formed and influenced by the thinkers and poets.
There exist philosophical words and terms which are hard to translate
into other languages as the translation never really hits the core of its meaning.
A lot of words that signify states of human relationships, morality, consciousness, rationality.
The wish to find exact names for realities and abstractions.
The feminisation of every word for every role a woman could take.
I'm not having too much knowledge about this and i still don't think german is nice sounding.
But somehow it evoked an appreciation in me for the language that might enable me to think in a way no other language could. Which does certainly count for every language.
"Zuwendung"
- translated as unconditional concern-,
to me the word in itself names a movement: turning-to
to turn to someone, look at someone, an attitude of recognition
focus with all your being towards someone
a "i see you and i'm here with you"
Sunday, December 03, 2006
more songs like that
Damien Rice has this new record out.
one of the lovesongs goes like this:
... i love your doublechin...
we need more songs like that
one of the lovesongs goes like this:
... i love your doublechin...
we need more songs like that
Friday, December 01, 2006
ud af byen
've been out on the road, or better out on the railway again
visiting some people from my language course
- we nearly spend the whole day inside eating a lot together and talking about all kinds of issues,
the importance of forgiveness, the wish to get somewhen somewhere settled.
India. Watching movies.
Went further to the very north point of this country,
where the two seas embracing Scandinavia come together
the light was beautiful
old bunkers on the beaches
there were penguins and seals
(I nearly forgot, that there are free animals)
the s-train was the same as the one from my hometown
and a nice italian guy made a coffeecreation extra for me
somehow psalm 116 became my prayer for us
Was also on one of the other islands of this country
and comforted by the danish/scandinavian way of
making their their buildings so "hyggelig"
travelling is also about finding out of all the beauty and goodness
God has placed on this earth and in people
and to be simply happy about it
visiting some people from my language course
- we nearly spend the whole day inside eating a lot together and talking about all kinds of issues,
the importance of forgiveness, the wish to get somewhen somewhere settled.
India. Watching movies.
Went further to the very north point of this country,
where the two seas embracing Scandinavia come together
the light was beautiful
old bunkers on the beaches
there were penguins and seals
(I nearly forgot, that there are free animals)
the s-train was the same as the one from my hometown
and a nice italian guy made a coffeecreation extra for me
somehow psalm 116 became my prayer for us
Was also on one of the other islands of this country
and comforted by the danish/scandinavian way of
making their their buildings so "hyggelig"
travelling is also about finding out of all the beauty and goodness
God has placed on this earth and in people
and to be simply happy about it
Thursday, November 23, 2006
well, as i´m playing on my blog right now anyway, i added some new people
Stephen,
whom i only know since a short time i´m here.
He makes lots of photos
has some kind of similar music taste to mine (i´m always getting excited meeting christians with the similar music taste:) is married to beautiful Dawn and i met him the first time
as he prayed for me:)
Looking forward to the future to see how things within "our" group will develop...
Markus,
with whom i lived for 1 year together in 1 house.
Though i never had a lot of contact to him and doesn´t know him very well,
he and Andrea always have been inspiring and encouraging people to me and
i´m excited to hear about the news of their developing community in Ramsdorf.
So check out their blog (if you can speak german:)
Stephen,
whom i only know since a short time i´m here.
He makes lots of photos
has some kind of similar music taste to mine (i´m always getting excited meeting christians with the similar music taste:) is married to beautiful Dawn and i met him the first time
as he prayed for me:)
Looking forward to the future to see how things within "our" group will develop...
Markus,
with whom i lived for 1 year together in 1 house.
Though i never had a lot of contact to him and doesn´t know him very well,
he and Andrea always have been inspiring and encouraging people to me and
i´m excited to hear about the news of their developing community in Ramsdorf.
So check out their blog (if you can speak german:)
by the way
wow, i just found out after some helpless tries how to change my location on my profile
(the nice things about one's own stupidness is often that it provides you with some laughter...)
Nu er det helt klar:
Jeg bor i danmark, ok!
and i just got to share some more excitement:
i think i got since two weeks this "Wow, i start to understand the danes - wake up dingsbums"
i´ve been always so frustrated with only understanding few of the words if i listened to people randomly talking,- it was only about figuring out which words i know they actually used instead of getting the meaning of a whole sentence. And somehow i woke up one day und suddenly i started to understand...
Yesterday i started reading a danish book (i have to read 3 danish books within 6 weeks for my danish lessons- if i got that right). I was badly tired after a long day, but just thought i try to start reading this novel in expectation of just getting annoyed because i will have to look up my dictionary all the time.
But somehow it was simply understandable to me, even if not every word (the book is written in quite easy everyday-language) made sense to me and i just ended up reading 4 chapters. Hihi. Thank you Jesus for your grace.
(the nice things about one's own stupidness is often that it provides you with some laughter...)
Nu er det helt klar:
Jeg bor i danmark, ok!
and i just got to share some more excitement:
i think i got since two weeks this "Wow, i start to understand the danes - wake up dingsbums"
i´ve been always so frustrated with only understanding few of the words if i listened to people randomly talking,- it was only about figuring out which words i know they actually used instead of getting the meaning of a whole sentence. And somehow i woke up one day und suddenly i started to understand...
Yesterday i started reading a danish book (i have to read 3 danish books within 6 weeks for my danish lessons- if i got that right). I was badly tired after a long day, but just thought i try to start reading this novel in expectation of just getting annoyed because i will have to look up my dictionary all the time.
But somehow it was simply understandable to me, even if not every word (the book is written in quite easy everyday-language) made sense to me and i just ended up reading 4 chapters. Hihi. Thank you Jesus for your grace.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Soli deo gloria in november
well, it´s been quite a while
sometimes there are times when it´s hard to put in words what you experience:)
I´m doing really well these days
just came back from a wonderful weekend in stockholm
where we had 24-7 nordic family gathering.
This time was certainly so encouraging for me,
to hear all the stories of what god has done in the different cities left me amazed, glad and at first also a bit ashamed, realising again that god is still the same that he still knows me,
though i´ve been struggling a lot in the last months to trust and follow him.
Got really excited to hear so many dreams and to talk with people about community,
to pray and drink cofffee together. There was just this freedom to speak out our thoughts
and also to speak out about each other and to each other as it was about jesus and us as family.
Loved to meet Resa, Erikka, Krister and Mathilda again (missed you Laura) and to meet lots of new people with funny connections (like: "didn´t i meet you somewhere in a kitchen in Oslo last year?") and with whom it simply feels so well being with.
And to experience that God doesn´t forget our prayers. He really don´t! I mean sometimes prayer becomes this religious practice of what you do because you used to and anyway it feels good to give things to God, and suddenly i´m talking with this one man in a kitchen and i become so aware that he and his dreams are part of the answer to a prayer i felt i had to pray a year ago and nearly forgot about...
Somehow i feel it´s right to be here, and i´m really looking forward of what to come.
Besides that i had a nice autumn in Denmark.
Exploring the city more, went with a friend to Møns Klint (i know the pic is cheasy and touristic) but it´s nevertheless absolutely beautiful when you are there in the night with the black sea and white chalkrocks...),
reading a lot about migration and integration issues
(some outcome thoughts of it might appear later on this blog),
and "Hygge" (the ultimate danish word for having a nice cozy time together with people you like, candles, music, tea, maybe also some knitting:) books, curryfood,... the list is enlargable
Guys: Have a "Hyggeaften"!!!
sometimes there are times when it´s hard to put in words what you experience:)
I´m doing really well these days
just came back from a wonderful weekend in stockholm
where we had 24-7 nordic family gathering.
This time was certainly so encouraging for me,
to hear all the stories of what god has done in the different cities left me amazed, glad and at first also a bit ashamed, realising again that god is still the same that he still knows me,
though i´ve been struggling a lot in the last months to trust and follow him.
Got really excited to hear so many dreams and to talk with people about community,
to pray and drink cofffee together. There was just this freedom to speak out our thoughts
and also to speak out about each other and to each other as it was about jesus and us as family.
Loved to meet Resa, Erikka, Krister and Mathilda again (missed you Laura) and to meet lots of new people with funny connections (like: "didn´t i meet you somewhere in a kitchen in Oslo last year?") and with whom it simply feels so well being with.
And to experience that God doesn´t forget our prayers. He really don´t! I mean sometimes prayer becomes this religious practice of what you do because you used to and anyway it feels good to give things to God, and suddenly i´m talking with this one man in a kitchen and i become so aware that he and his dreams are part of the answer to a prayer i felt i had to pray a year ago and nearly forgot about...
Somehow i feel it´s right to be here, and i´m really looking forward of what to come.
Besides that i had a nice autumn in Denmark.
Exploring the city more, went with a friend to Møns Klint (i know the pic is cheasy and touristic) but it´s nevertheless absolutely beautiful when you are there in the night with the black sea and white chalkrocks...),
reading a lot about migration and integration issues
(some outcome thoughts of it might appear later on this blog),
and "Hygge" (the ultimate danish word for having a nice cozy time together with people you like, candles, music, tea, maybe also some knitting:) books, curryfood,... the list is enlargable
Guys: Have a "Hyggeaften"!!!
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
the good life?
right know i`m enjoying and struggeling
getting settled in my new living commune
enjoying sunny mornings with massive latte macchiatos on the sunterace
and small english lectures
hoping not to get involved in biketraffic accidents as i have to learn some rules here
("never forget to put up the right hand as you are stopping" i say to myself everytime again i hear the squeaking tires of bikes behind me and get some bad looks)
new people and new people and new people
getting used to live with each other
i´m an immigrant; you are not from here? and welcome
my head being dizzy
dreaming of friends, waking up and realising how much i actually miss them
putting myself to work and being "active" as compensation of everything i´m always and always again leaving behind and the fear of loosing hold with loosing structures and ideas i used to worship (thanks tom for this one post)
not knowing what all of this is going to be about
getting settled in my new living commune
enjoying sunny mornings with massive latte macchiatos on the sunterace
and small english lectures
hoping not to get involved in biketraffic accidents as i have to learn some rules here
("never forget to put up the right hand as you are stopping" i say to myself everytime again i hear the squeaking tires of bikes behind me and get some bad looks)
new people and new people and new people
getting used to live with each other
i´m an immigrant; you are not from here? and welcome
my head being dizzy
dreaming of friends, waking up and realising how much i actually miss them
putting myself to work and being "active" as compensation of everything i´m always and always again leaving behind and the fear of loosing hold with loosing structures and ideas i used to worship (thanks tom for this one post)
not knowing what all of this is going to be about
Sunday, August 27, 2006
the hitch-hike-issue
just conquered one of my fears
hitch-hiking:
- though i`m used to go by lifts i always found this more dangerous
maybe thats also true...
however, just went from Danmark back to Germany (to leave in 3 days finally again)
went some way with a libanese man we talked about social work and migration issues,
he just told me his story of have been in the libanese childrenarmy and fleeing from it all the 5000 km to danmark in the age of 16. Now he´s probably in his 40s working in a factory in Danmark. Just talked about this thing of not feeling anything about these former times and exprience as some kind of selfprotection. Was really good for me to get a glimpse of how the lifes can go on from the teenagers i workes with the last half year (as they also "worked" with me).
Got catched up later on by a woman with a great charisma, who workes in all kinds of countries for the WHO and is now married to a man from Kenia. She also wrote lost of Articles about refugees and empowerment and lived with her family and and a refugeefamily from Iran together for a while...
Also a cute, older german Truckdriver took me with him, really had fun being in this huge truck and talking with him. He wanted to take me with to Austria, but i thought it would be better for me get out earlier:)
This is one of these strange days that started sad because of saying goodbye to people; but found me just amazed sitting in cars talking to people that tell me from some "topics i believe to really become topics of my life"-
i´m thankful for having met so many nice amazing people on one day
i love being alive
hitch-hiking:
- though i`m used to go by lifts i always found this more dangerous
maybe thats also true...
however, just went from Danmark back to Germany (to leave in 3 days finally again)
went some way with a libanese man we talked about social work and migration issues,
he just told me his story of have been in the libanese childrenarmy and fleeing from it all the 5000 km to danmark in the age of 16. Now he´s probably in his 40s working in a factory in Danmark. Just talked about this thing of not feeling anything about these former times and exprience as some kind of selfprotection. Was really good for me to get a glimpse of how the lifes can go on from the teenagers i workes with the last half year (as they also "worked" with me).
Got catched up later on by a woman with a great charisma, who workes in all kinds of countries for the WHO and is now married to a man from Kenia. She also wrote lost of Articles about refugees and empowerment and lived with her family and and a refugeefamily from Iran together for a while...
Also a cute, older german Truckdriver took me with him, really had fun being in this huge truck and talking with him. He wanted to take me with to Austria, but i thought it would be better for me get out earlier:)
This is one of these strange days that started sad because of saying goodbye to people; but found me just amazed sitting in cars talking to people that tell me from some "topics i believe to really become topics of my life"-
i´m thankful for having met so many nice amazing people on one day
i love being alive
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
communications
its going well
feel more and more secure in speaking danish
and beside i love it to have all these talks with the people here
we mainly speak english, everyone with his/her own accent and way of expressing him or herself, - which is great:
I dont like the sea here so much, because its full of vegetables.
Are you hungry with me? No, im not hungry. But something is not right, i can see it in your face. Oh, No, no im not angry with you, just a little tired...
the morning rituals of waking each other up, and when someone sleeps too long then everyone comes too late...
complains from tomoko in the morning about:
waiting for italiano, always waiting for italiano...
the bath issue
laughing and being angry about the tiredness and misunderstandings
good that people are different
feel more and more secure in speaking danish
and beside i love it to have all these talks with the people here
we mainly speak english, everyone with his/her own accent and way of expressing him or herself, - which is great:
I dont like the sea here so much, because its full of vegetables.
Are you hungry with me? No, im not hungry. But something is not right, i can see it in your face. Oh, No, no im not angry with you, just a little tired...
the morning rituals of waking each other up, and when someone sleeps too long then everyone comes too late...
complains from tomoko in the morning about:
waiting for italiano, always waiting for italiano...
the bath issue
laughing and being angry about the tiredness and misunderstandings
good that people are different
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
knallert forbudt
learning a new language is in my opinion maybe one of the most important experiences to make...
i just feel so stupid right now learning danish
i'm in a class where nearly all people speak danish much better than i do
we discuss all kind of live topics and i feel like a child that is not able to express itself in proper words, with the difference that that what i want to say is maybe much more complicated that what a child wants to express, i'm drowning in embarrasment nearly every time i want to say something
this is so frustrating...
and to go through this frustration, not become all angry when i don't understand anything (when i still don't understand after 3 times of repeating),
not to loose confidence, and not to become quiet might be quite a good character training, (aargh)
good that most people here also speak english ..
besides that it's really nice to figure that verbal communication is really not everything,
really like our neighborlivingcommune, two italians, a guy from switzerland, one other polish guy,
and a japanese girl. I really like her, and we have to repeat nearly every simple sentence we say to each other twice- german and japanese accented danish, you know
- but we just smile at each other and there is total understanding- it's really nice to have situations where both can't find words but you just know you understand each other (or believe to...)
some days ago one of my polish friends here told me in a english- german- mix what i should text in danish to her turkish collegue...
besides that it's raining far too much, so that even our warm italians get slightly in a rather depressed mood... hope we will all overcome that
i'm grateful to be here, yes
i just feel so stupid right now learning danish
i'm in a class where nearly all people speak danish much better than i do
we discuss all kind of live topics and i feel like a child that is not able to express itself in proper words, with the difference that that what i want to say is maybe much more complicated that what a child wants to express, i'm drowning in embarrasment nearly every time i want to say something
this is so frustrating...
and to go through this frustration, not become all angry when i don't understand anything (when i still don't understand after 3 times of repeating),
not to loose confidence, and not to become quiet might be quite a good character training, (aargh)
good that most people here also speak english ..
besides that it's really nice to figure that verbal communication is really not everything,
really like our neighborlivingcommune, two italians, a guy from switzerland, one other polish guy,
and a japanese girl. I really like her, and we have to repeat nearly every simple sentence we say to each other twice- german and japanese accented danish, you know
- but we just smile at each other and there is total understanding- it's really nice to have situations where both can't find words but you just know you understand each other (or believe to...)
some days ago one of my polish friends here told me in a english- german- mix what i should text in danish to her turkish collegue...
besides that it's raining far too much, so that even our warm italians get slightly in a rather depressed mood... hope we will all overcome that
i'm grateful to be here, yes
Thursday, August 03, 2006
eastcoast
yes, against all fears i arrived well
for my one-month language course in Denmark
the guy who gave me a lift also drove to this city to start his exchange semester
i was slightly stressed before because the university didn't give me any message
if they organised any room for me, so i actually started making some plans via hospitalityclub:)
but as we arrived they gave me the keys for a wonderful room in quite an erasmus living commune- living together with a wonderful polish guy and his girlfriend, a canadian russian,
two very english girls and our neighbors below are two danish guys in quite a messy red house
i never thought it would be that good
just smelling some garlic food now, listening to very loud music and typing on a "polish computer"
the language course started very well- there are about 140 exchange students here at this ultramodern university, still we are nearly to 80% germans in my language course-
heared today in one of the cultural lectures that in 1944 germany occupied this city and used the university as the Gestapo headquarters... Germany, will i ever be able to escape from you (?:)
Hope you all enjoy your summer...
for my one-month language course in Denmark
the guy who gave me a lift also drove to this city to start his exchange semester
i was slightly stressed before because the university didn't give me any message
if they organised any room for me, so i actually started making some plans via hospitalityclub:)
but as we arrived they gave me the keys for a wonderful room in quite an erasmus living commune- living together with a wonderful polish guy and his girlfriend, a canadian russian,
two very english girls and our neighbors below are two danish guys in quite a messy red house
i never thought it would be that good
just smelling some garlic food now, listening to very loud music and typing on a "polish computer"
the language course started very well- there are about 140 exchange students here at this ultramodern university, still we are nearly to 80% germans in my language course-
heared today in one of the cultural lectures that in 1944 germany occupied this city and used the university as the Gestapo headquarters... Germany, will i ever be able to escape from you (?:)
Hope you all enjoy your summer...
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Thursday, July 20, 2006
july
´ve been for one week in the town i´m actually studying
We visited on day a small castle, which was borrowed from the city (who had no money to renovate it) to a group of 6 friends for a euro per year,- they just have to renovate it bit by bit
any other investor said no cos the costs would be too high, but these friends said lets try it
and moved in with a little circus. Now it is a company of a lot of people all working in this castle and in the park around, the castle is still morbid, but in a very nice way. They made in that beautiful building space for sensual exploration. Lot´s of things about feeling, tasting, smelling, seeing, hearing, working with your sense of orientation, water and fire, ...
There was one amazing room where you could put few sand on metalplates and produce a sound with a violine string by going with it along the corners of the metalplates. As soon the sound was produced the sand jumped up and feel down in filigrane patterns like you can see in snowflakes. These sandlines showed how the audiowaves went trough the metalplate- i was really amazed.
They have there everyday lots of schoolclasses and other groups as visitors to train people to use all their senses again... great thing
Besides that i finished my practical semester, was not so easy to say goodbye to the kids
and to the less or more wonderful chaos i worked in
will miss the broken German, situation humor and everyday stories of the kids
("my nerves are empty, i can´t do homework now", "it´s good for a boy to eat pizza and fries, girls shall eat fruits", "Iran is for men, Germany is for women", "your head is beautiful"- did i tell that i got a pink oversized shirt for my birthday from one of the boys...:-)
met a woman who is doing indianic dances in Denmark which are good for world peace,
we had great talks about friendship, living together, and crazy stories of live (go by lifts!)
i love my living commune,
we finally finished our self made leather flip flops, made a gallery of big black-white-photos of the profile of our deformed stomaches in the bath room, cooked "holundersirup", i sprayed my first selfmade stancel and we still take care that our flat is full of flowers and coffee fragrance
Will go this weekend to beautiful dresden
and then some old, old friends and i will spend some days on an old farm on the country side just to do nothing than talking, eating, listening to music and hugging each other a lot- we won´t come together so young any more
hope you all enjoy your travels
have a blessed summer
We visited on day a small castle, which was borrowed from the city (who had no money to renovate it) to a group of 6 friends for a euro per year,- they just have to renovate it bit by bit
any other investor said no cos the costs would be too high, but these friends said lets try it
and moved in with a little circus. Now it is a company of a lot of people all working in this castle and in the park around, the castle is still morbid, but in a very nice way. They made in that beautiful building space for sensual exploration. Lot´s of things about feeling, tasting, smelling, seeing, hearing, working with your sense of orientation, water and fire, ...
There was one amazing room where you could put few sand on metalplates and produce a sound with a violine string by going with it along the corners of the metalplates. As soon the sound was produced the sand jumped up and feel down in filigrane patterns like you can see in snowflakes. These sandlines showed how the audiowaves went trough the metalplate- i was really amazed.
They have there everyday lots of schoolclasses and other groups as visitors to train people to use all their senses again... great thing
Besides that i finished my practical semester, was not so easy to say goodbye to the kids
and to the less or more wonderful chaos i worked in
will miss the broken German, situation humor and everyday stories of the kids
("my nerves are empty, i can´t do homework now", "it´s good for a boy to eat pizza and fries, girls shall eat fruits", "Iran is for men, Germany is for women", "your head is beautiful"- did i tell that i got a pink oversized shirt for my birthday from one of the boys...:-)
met a woman who is doing indianic dances in Denmark which are good for world peace,
we had great talks about friendship, living together, and crazy stories of live (go by lifts!)
i love my living commune,
we finally finished our self made leather flip flops, made a gallery of big black-white-photos of the profile of our deformed stomaches in the bath room, cooked "holundersirup", i sprayed my first selfmade stancel and we still take care that our flat is full of flowers and coffee fragrance
Will go this weekend to beautiful dresden
and then some old, old friends and i will spend some days on an old farm on the country side just to do nothing than talking, eating, listening to music and hugging each other a lot- we won´t come together so young any more
hope you all enjoy your travels
have a blessed summer
Sunday, July 02, 2006
thank you God for mornings
do you know the feeling that something in your stomach starts to hurt,
simply because that what you experience right now is too beautiful to be fully felt
just listening to kings of convenience, certainly one of the most beautiful bands i ever listened to
"you shine like gold in the air of summer"...
ran with a friend all night through the city, watching the sun rise over the habour
figured that "sky" is one of the most sureal things
the blue is most beautiful right between night and day
it´s a cozy blue,
you can´t see it clear because theres nothing else in the sky than blue, no distance visible
bought some hot chocolate and smoked fish at the fishmarket that opened at 5
and it´s like theres nothing else to do than to smile
thats my task for the day
what is yours? :)
simply because that what you experience right now is too beautiful to be fully felt
just listening to kings of convenience, certainly one of the most beautiful bands i ever listened to
"you shine like gold in the air of summer"...
ran with a friend all night through the city, watching the sun rise over the habour
figured that "sky" is one of the most sureal things
the blue is most beautiful right between night and day
it´s a cozy blue,
you can´t see it clear because theres nothing else in the sky than blue, no distance visible
bought some hot chocolate and smoked fish at the fishmarket that opened at 5
and it´s like theres nothing else to do than to smile
thats my task for the day
what is yours? :)
Friday, June 30, 2006
still june, diggas
just want to introduce some new people i linked in
they are actually not "new", but i finally linked them in and thought it would be cool to describe quickly my connection to them
so there is "Wölfchen", one of my friends i know for quite a long time, maybe even better since i left Dresden, a very faithful phonecaller, thank you for that
Stephan, also known for about 10 years ? back from his year from the philippines, welcome home brother ( he was the one where i first tried out to make some dread locks, - he looked like mr. super spike...)
Sam, whom i met in Scotland, through quite a messy prayer week, really like her blog and humour
Hannah, also edinburgh, red car, hopefully pink hair, messy kids, gave me her matress and i slept so well on it, thank you han!
chris, met him in Dresden and Edinburgh, most wonderful accent and gentleman attitude
i´m glad to got to know you guys
they are actually not "new", but i finally linked them in and thought it would be cool to describe quickly my connection to them
so there is "Wölfchen", one of my friends i know for quite a long time, maybe even better since i left Dresden, a very faithful phonecaller, thank you for that
Stephan, also known for about 10 years ? back from his year from the philippines, welcome home brother ( he was the one where i first tried out to make some dread locks, - he looked like mr. super spike...)
Sam, whom i met in Scotland, through quite a messy prayer week, really like her blog and humour
Hannah, also edinburgh, red car, hopefully pink hair, messy kids, gave me her matress and i slept so well on it, thank you han!
chris, met him in Dresden and Edinburgh, most wonderful accent and gentleman attitude
i´m glad to got to know you guys
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
June
have to admit that the capital of my country is quite fascinating
the visits before this city just fell on me too heavy
but lately it has been wonderful
the turkish market, all people screaming around selling the fruits and crazy spices in the last hours for nearly nothing- we bought 10 pounds of strawberries...
the old man in his cafe where he put a thousand photos on the walls, chairs, tables, mobiles
we gave him some strawberries and he gave us 2 white roses
this is what makes and my heart jump :)
being on one of the coolest fleamarkets of the whole country (lets say of whole world)
philosophying in the old railway area some people made to a cultural centre
watching the eastsidegallery and being newly aware that this is part of my history
eating tons of pasta talking for hours
chilling in the "club der republik"
streetartshops in nonrenovated eaststyle houses
a coffee for free
the freestyler in the tube
yes this city is massive, but so fascinating not just because of the different nongerman cultures, but also because is combining the charme of former west and eastgermany in a special way
here again
the friends beachpartie along the river
with the backround light from THE harbour
having had a car accident before - but this couldn´t stop us:)
by the way the world cup jumped also into my life
simply necessary as i still like to have some social contact
quite a nice atmosphere though lots of security
...would be interesting to see how germany would cope with a visit of ahmadinejad ...
enjoy the summer!
love
the visits before this city just fell on me too heavy
but lately it has been wonderful
the turkish market, all people screaming around selling the fruits and crazy spices in the last hours for nearly nothing- we bought 10 pounds of strawberries...
the old man in his cafe where he put a thousand photos on the walls, chairs, tables, mobiles
we gave him some strawberries and he gave us 2 white roses
this is what makes and my heart jump :)
being on one of the coolest fleamarkets of the whole country (lets say of whole world)
philosophying in the old railway area some people made to a cultural centre
watching the eastsidegallery and being newly aware that this is part of my history
eating tons of pasta talking for hours
chilling in the "club der republik"
streetartshops in nonrenovated eaststyle houses
a coffee for free
the freestyler in the tube
yes this city is massive, but so fascinating not just because of the different nongerman cultures, but also because is combining the charme of former west and eastgermany in a special way
here again
the friends beachpartie along the river
with the backround light from THE harbour
having had a car accident before - but this couldn´t stop us:)
by the way the world cup jumped also into my life
simply necessary as i still like to have some social contact
quite a nice atmosphere though lots of security
...would be interesting to see how germany would cope with a visit of ahmadinejad ...
enjoy the summer!
love
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Hej
...a phenomenon i don´t understand
this is the year 2006- THE year for Germany
Why? soccer!
this is not rational, ensible or explainable
they put some hundreds of blue lighted goals on the roofs of all high housesin ths city,
every day i use the tube it says in how many minutes the tube will arrive and how many days are left til the first game of the fifa world championship
there are posters all over saying:"Die Welt zu Gast bei Freunden" (the world hosted by friends Fifa 2006- would be nice i we would have this slogan also for asylum seekers...)
all newspapers are full of articles about the topic
the galleries and museums make exhibitions about soccer
you can buy soccerballbreadrools in the bakery
fake "Germany"-tatoos in the supermarkets
they make seminars for busdrivers etc. to be nicer (as you know Germans are not nown as the warmest people:) and how to handle critical fan situations
you can hardly buy tickets for the games, but lot of companies got some and you can win them if you buy their products
this is also the perfect moment to introduce more instruments for our "national security"
there are fights in the red light disricts about which pimps will get more prostitutes to serve the fans
I´d guess nearly 30% of the TV-spots are spammed with soccer
all kinds of products are suddenly black, red, gold
a new public discussion and reflection araised of who "we" actually are and a new "German feeling"-
controversial as always: bashing, yessaying
...
this is definetely far too emphasised and expensive (yes sometimes i think economically)
and leaves a strange feeling in fear of nationalism+ simply
being annoyed
but i like the times when people put their sofas out on the streets+ their TV to watch the games together and to watch people being totally concentrated and
fascinated
hmmpf fortunately it´s over in some weeks
this is the year 2006- THE year for Germany
Why? soccer!
this is not rational, ensible or explainable
they put some hundreds of blue lighted goals on the roofs of all high housesin ths city,
every day i use the tube it says in how many minutes the tube will arrive and how many days are left til the first game of the fifa world championship
there are posters all over saying:"Die Welt zu Gast bei Freunden" (the world hosted by friends Fifa 2006- would be nice i we would have this slogan also for asylum seekers...)
all newspapers are full of articles about the topic
the galleries and museums make exhibitions about soccer
you can buy soccerballbreadrools in the bakery
fake "Germany"-tatoos in the supermarkets
they make seminars for busdrivers etc. to be nicer (as you know Germans are not nown as the warmest people:) and how to handle critical fan situations
you can hardly buy tickets for the games, but lot of companies got some and you can win them if you buy their products
this is also the perfect moment to introduce more instruments for our "national security"
there are fights in the red light disricts about which pimps will get more prostitutes to serve the fans
I´d guess nearly 30% of the TV-spots are spammed with soccer
all kinds of products are suddenly black, red, gold
a new public discussion and reflection araised of who "we" actually are and a new "German feeling"-
controversial as always: bashing, yessaying
...
this is definetely far too emphasised and expensive (yes sometimes i think economically)
and leaves a strange feeling in fear of nationalism+ simply
being annoyed
but i like the times when people put their sofas out on the streets+ their TV to watch the games together and to watch people being totally concentrated and
fascinated
hmmpf fortunately it´s over in some weeks
Thursday, May 04, 2006
adventures
we went through dark tunnels from trainstationhall to trainstationhall
its all old and fascinating when you are inside these halls; its nearly some kind of churchbuilding feeling because of all the graffitties on the outside. And you can go below the railway in rust and waterfilled rooms.
It´s so good to have this explorative (hopefully nobody sees us) feeling again
to sit on towers of beerboxes watching the trains
and playing agent whomever in the little boot exploring the channel in the night.
read toms recently post to get some decent thoughts about this phenomenon:)
its all old and fascinating when you are inside these halls; its nearly some kind of churchbuilding feeling because of all the graffitties on the outside. And you can go below the railway in rust and waterfilled rooms.
It´s so good to have this explorative (hopefully nobody sees us) feeling again
to sit on towers of beerboxes watching the trains
and playing agent whomever in the little boot exploring the channel in the night.
read toms recently post to get some decent thoughts about this phenomenon:)
Friday, April 28, 2006
we sowed some herbseeds and colourful flowers- that´s a right and modest thing to do in spring:)
read recently that the EU -anti-torture-comitee
criticised the deportationjail 3 kilometers away from my bed as "not acceptable"
i would so like to be able to say to you that things are going to be alright, somehow
but if i´d do so i´d feel like giving you promises i can´t keep
read recently that the EU -anti-torture-comitee
criticised the deportationjail 3 kilometers away from my bed as "not acceptable"
i would so like to be able to say to you that things are going to be alright, somehow
but if i´d do so i´d feel like giving you promises i can´t keep
Monday, April 24, 2006
actual
we had this demonstration yesterday against the refugee and asylumseekers policy of Germany
it seems to be a fact of success for some politicians to show in the end of a year in their reports how the number of asylum seekers living in their county was minimized.
How can we call people as not willing to integrate when we don´t give them the chance to learn proper German, to work, to live in within "normal" parts of the city and to take part in the socio-cultural live when asylum seekers have to live in these places not worth to be called homes for years until they get some kind of residence permit (if they get it)?
Why do we divide Migrants into "the qualified, useful people" bringing human capital into the country and the non-qualified people just consuming "our resources"? The young boy born in Germany with turkish parents, suffering from years of failures in education policy with few chances to ever get a job has the task to justify the rest of his life why he is excist in this country.
He is seen as not valuable.
Waiting with the young girls in the foreigners office, together with about 50 other people and little kids running around. It´s a humbling atmosphere. There are no toys for the kids who also have to wait hour for hour. But we make jokes and laugh a lot. 6 months more.
There´s this big discussion going on again in Germany about integration of Migrants, values, "murder in the name of honour", and deportation. I hope i´m not being naive. I´m aware that there are certain budgets, people who live here for years and don´t speak a word of German, that we can´t care for endless numbers of refugees. But i´m also becoming more aware about the unjustices in these areas going on everyday tolerated, about thought patterns behind (where i even sometimes find myself) definitions of "me" and "you, the other", the fear of the strange,etc. Maybe we need to get our minds changed. And let go of everything we thought we owned.
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Besides that we had this really nice "cheeseburger-evening" with lots of friends and dogs,
exploring old, empty buildings (got this feelig again i felt so often as a kid...this "hopeful nobody finds us") and btw: it´s really cool to put the same sticker on the face of all your friends or this little tatoos you can stick with water on your skin- try it out! (The best are little pirates)
hope you are all well
it seems to be a fact of success for some politicians to show in the end of a year in their reports how the number of asylum seekers living in their county was minimized.
How can we call people as not willing to integrate when we don´t give them the chance to learn proper German, to work, to live in within "normal" parts of the city and to take part in the socio-cultural live when asylum seekers have to live in these places not worth to be called homes for years until they get some kind of residence permit (if they get it)?
Why do we divide Migrants into "the qualified, useful people" bringing human capital into the country and the non-qualified people just consuming "our resources"? The young boy born in Germany with turkish parents, suffering from years of failures in education policy with few chances to ever get a job has the task to justify the rest of his life why he is excist in this country.
He is seen as not valuable.
Waiting with the young girls in the foreigners office, together with about 50 other people and little kids running around. It´s a humbling atmosphere. There are no toys for the kids who also have to wait hour for hour. But we make jokes and laugh a lot. 6 months more.
There´s this big discussion going on again in Germany about integration of Migrants, values, "murder in the name of honour", and deportation. I hope i´m not being naive. I´m aware that there are certain budgets, people who live here for years and don´t speak a word of German, that we can´t care for endless numbers of refugees. But i´m also becoming more aware about the unjustices in these areas going on everyday tolerated, about thought patterns behind (where i even sometimes find myself) definitions of "me" and "you, the other", the fear of the strange,etc. Maybe we need to get our minds changed. And let go of everything we thought we owned.
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Besides that we had this really nice "cheeseburger-evening" with lots of friends and dogs,
exploring old, empty buildings (got this feelig again i felt so often as a kid...this "hopeful nobody finds us") and btw: it´s really cool to put the same sticker on the face of all your friends or this little tatoos you can stick with water on your skin- try it out! (The best are little pirates)
hope you are all well
Friday, March 31, 2006
flashlights- we had some sunshine
"you got pain-head?" asked me the boy while doing his maths homework as i laid my head in my hands
"i broke this finger as a did some kungfu three years gao. i practice its muscles while dancing" said the lonely old strange- dancing man in this too dark bar
it´s just 30 minutes by feet from the red-light-party-district to my home, the girls prostituting themselves look quite similar to me
eyerings arent just eyerings, they tell different stories
it´s possible to enjoy to listen to the snoring of your flatmate as something which is real and usual
didn´t realise there was this tornado till watched the news at night
i do ignore people as i feel they are too much for me
thiscitywritessomemillionstorieseveryday
itsinformationoverkill
whoreadsallofthese?
PLEASEGOD
"i broke this finger as a did some kungfu three years gao. i practice its muscles while dancing" said the lonely old strange- dancing man in this too dark bar
it´s just 30 minutes by feet from the red-light-party-district to my home, the girls prostituting themselves look quite similar to me
eyerings arent just eyerings, they tell different stories
it´s possible to enjoy to listen to the snoring of your flatmate as something which is real and usual
didn´t realise there was this tornado till watched the news at night
i do ignore people as i feel they are too much for me
thiscitywritessomemillionstorieseveryday
itsinformationoverkill
whoreadsallofthese?
PLEASEGOD
Sunday, March 12, 2006
nordic winter
it´s cold here
badly
they say it didn´t snow that much here for years
managed to get icecold + wet feet three times this weekend...
my friend david from dresden is over ...nice
to explore the city together with friends
went today though an old tunnel under the river
an amazing constrution from 1907
got a phonecall from a random guys from the city i lived before, he also lives here now for a while and someone connected us, so he phoned me and we found out we live nearly on the same street, so we going to undertake some stuff
and old classmate of mine phoned me later (we didn´t talk for about 1,5years)
and she´ll come up here for some hours cos other fiends of here are living here too
seems like one can meet everybody in a big city like this:)
went on concerts of "a red season shade" from france and "coem" from belgium- recommend that...this band managed to make the whole audience singing there inner out with the words "oh my nadja" what a hymn:)
btw nice music:
look up www.myspace.com/thewinnipegboys -a friend of mine recorded a few really nice songs
in the meantime i keep on spending loads of time with my living commune, my clothing is full of doghair, someone makes crepes right now
i´m going to eat and dance
lets take time for that
badly
they say it didn´t snow that much here for years
managed to get icecold + wet feet three times this weekend...
my friend david from dresden is over ...nice
to explore the city together with friends
went today though an old tunnel under the river
an amazing constrution from 1907
got a phonecall from a random guys from the city i lived before, he also lives here now for a while and someone connected us, so he phoned me and we found out we live nearly on the same street, so we going to undertake some stuff
and old classmate of mine phoned me later (we didn´t talk for about 1,5years)
and she´ll come up here for some hours cos other fiends of here are living here too
seems like one can meet everybody in a big city like this:)
went on concerts of "a red season shade" from france and "coem" from belgium- recommend that...this band managed to make the whole audience singing there inner out with the words "oh my nadja" what a hymn:)
btw nice music:
look up www.myspace.com/thewinnipegboys -a friend of mine recorded a few really nice songs
in the meantime i keep on spending loads of time with my living commune, my clothing is full of doghair, someone makes crepes right now
i´m going to eat and dance
lets take time for that
Friday, March 03, 2006
Dock 11
...we proposed to open up a club here called "unicorns at dock 11" or something like that, with a "Schill-out- area", old sofas and walls you can leave your creative output on
right at the harbour
and all people have to wear captains-huts...
i´m doing well here
just moved finally into my tiny room yesterday (yeah)
developed livingcommuneveningrituals of having candels on, drinking tea
and listening to some audioplays
dogs make lifes brighter
i really enjoy doing my practical training
really clicking with the team and getting so much
insight in all kinds of issues and problems concerning the setting i´m working in
I´m currently about to get some more knowledge and insight in
German laws governing all kinds of foreigner and integration issues
might write some more stuff about that later
on the other hand is happens so easily to live in my little world
and to somehow close my heart up/ getting less emotional involved
in getting to know how certain systems are working
and to see what somehow extreme lifes some of the kids are living
I will really have to learn how to bring myself in with my personality
and the things i believe are good, and how to keep integrity
really looking forward to spring
get some hugs, guys
right at the harbour
and all people have to wear captains-huts...
i´m doing well here
just moved finally into my tiny room yesterday (yeah)
developed livingcommuneveningrituals of having candels on, drinking tea
and listening to some audioplays
dogs make lifes brighter
i really enjoy doing my practical training
really clicking with the team and getting so much
insight in all kinds of issues and problems concerning the setting i´m working in
I´m currently about to get some more knowledge and insight in
German laws governing all kinds of foreigner and integration issues
might write some more stuff about that later
on the other hand is happens so easily to live in my little world
and to somehow close my heart up/ getting less emotional involved
in getting to know how certain systems are working
and to see what somehow extreme lifes some of the kids are living
I will really have to learn how to bring myself in with my personality
and the things i believe are good, and how to keep integrity
really looking forward to spring
get some hugs, guys
Sunday, February 19, 2006
new city- oh so surreal:)
Thursday: free cardigans concert in Cologne, yes. There are lots of reasons to be into scandinavia
Monday: my dear friend becky finally visited me, was so nice to show her my study city and to introduce her to my friends- good to connect the different worlds i live in
had a big godbye- curry-party in the eve
Tuesday: started to pack my kitchen stuff between 4 and 5 in the night- why is moving always messing me up?
Wednesday: stored most of my stuff in a house somewhere in the mountains
Thursday: sitting quietly with a friend, candles and Jazz in her kitchen having a silent goodbye
Friday: a friend and i packed his car with essential life stuff to make our way up north to the new city where i´ll start my practical semester
a smiling new chaos living commune welcomed us in a tiny flat with a wonderful dog
nice party in a loft right at the water of someone i dont kow in the evening- guys, i really think a loft might be the perfect solution for bigcity communitylife
saturday: walking for hours along the harbour and beaches
kashmir-concert (waaah- how beautiful)
making horses to unicorns in a club
Sunday: i´m tired, my friend left, and im finally realising i moved here
hugs
Monday: my dear friend becky finally visited me, was so nice to show her my study city and to introduce her to my friends- good to connect the different worlds i live in
had a big godbye- curry-party in the eve
Tuesday: started to pack my kitchen stuff between 4 and 5 in the night- why is moving always messing me up?
Wednesday: stored most of my stuff in a house somewhere in the mountains
Thursday: sitting quietly with a friend, candles and Jazz in her kitchen having a silent goodbye
Friday: a friend and i packed his car with essential life stuff to make our way up north to the new city where i´ll start my practical semester
a smiling new chaos living commune welcomed us in a tiny flat with a wonderful dog
nice party in a loft right at the water of someone i dont kow in the evening- guys, i really think a loft might be the perfect solution for bigcity communitylife
saturday: walking for hours along the harbour and beaches
kashmir-concert (waaah- how beautiful)
making horses to unicorns in a club
Sunday: i´m tired, my friend left, and im finally realising i moved here
hugs
Thursday, February 09, 2006
update
i´m having holidays
kind of
loads of birthday, semester end and goodbye parties in the last time
cos loads of people leaving the town for doing their practical semester somewhere else
as i will also do
we still haven´t found a new flatmate
and i´m in week number 5 of the "living alone experince"
i´m really not the person for that
Had good talks last sunday at church with a couple from coventry
didn´t know that churches in the UK can have a "fair-trade-church-certificate"
interesting stuff- i hope this issue will be stressed more in the future in this country as well
was on saturday in "walk the line" the biopic about jonny cash
what to say, the movie shows a lot about the ups and downs of him
and it´s also a lot the love story of him and june
it seems nearly a little cliche, (but sometimes life is simply cliche)
you know the stuff with the superwoman who helps the brokendown rockstar
to get in line again- and they live in love together til the end of their lives...
saying of the week for me is:
we wanna be radical but also be loved and both doesn´t always go together
(a guy in TV doing a literaturemagazin said that while talking with an author about his new book "beer&blood"- great title, i think)
music i´m currently listening to: nina nastasia, sigur ros, final fantasy, p. wolf, 60´s beat´n garage sampler made by a friend
wish you all a nice weekend:)
kind of
loads of birthday, semester end and goodbye parties in the last time
cos loads of people leaving the town for doing their practical semester somewhere else
as i will also do
we still haven´t found a new flatmate
and i´m in week number 5 of the "living alone experince"
i´m really not the person for that
Had good talks last sunday at church with a couple from coventry
didn´t know that churches in the UK can have a "fair-trade-church-certificate"
interesting stuff- i hope this issue will be stressed more in the future in this country as well
was on saturday in "walk the line" the biopic about jonny cash
what to say, the movie shows a lot about the ups and downs of him
and it´s also a lot the love story of him and june
it seems nearly a little cliche, (but sometimes life is simply cliche)
you know the stuff with the superwoman who helps the brokendown rockstar
to get in line again- and they live in love together til the end of their lives...
saying of the week for me is:
we wanna be radical but also be loved and both doesn´t always go together
(a guy in TV doing a literaturemagazin said that while talking with an author about his new book "beer&blood"- great title, i think)
music i´m currently listening to: nina nastasia, sigur ros, final fantasy, p. wolf, 60´s beat´n garage sampler made by a friend
wish you all a nice weekend:)
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Dreamday and stuff
wrote my last examen for this semester yesterday
it all went so superfast, -nearly finished my basicstudies
and i still feel not that much more competent:)
had this weekend dreamday in the city
we had it as a 24-1prayertime to bring our dreams before God,
to share it to others and to listen for new deams
- had personally some really encouraging times with God and friends
there were always some people there, so that was cool,
though i wished that more of the young folk of the different churches would have joined in.
but when i´m learning one thing in the last time then that it´s not about me,
how much effort i make and stuff like that. God is the one who impacts the people
it´s not about the "big success" and "efficiency", but more about what the single person experienced being alone with God in that room
- well, still have a lot to learn in that
(my germanness often seem to hit me in that ...:)
Had also in the beginning of the weekend one of these "that´s -amazing- conversations"
a guy phoned me in the middle of the night to have a talk with a friend. he kind of started sharing some deep stuff as i had to interrupt him telling him that i have actually no clue who he is - he was simply wrong connected. Couldn´t find the number of his friend in the phone book, so we just ended up talking about an hour...
really like this crazy lifestuff
(so far a contribution to the always actual topic of "why do stangers talk to me" :-)
it all went so superfast, -nearly finished my basicstudies
and i still feel not that much more competent:)
had this weekend dreamday in the city
we had it as a 24-1prayertime to bring our dreams before God,
to share it to others and to listen for new deams
- had personally some really encouraging times with God and friends
there were always some people there, so that was cool,
though i wished that more of the young folk of the different churches would have joined in.
but when i´m learning one thing in the last time then that it´s not about me,
how much effort i make and stuff like that. God is the one who impacts the people
it´s not about the "big success" and "efficiency", but more about what the single person experienced being alone with God in that room
- well, still have a lot to learn in that
(my germanness often seem to hit me in that ...:)
Had also in the beginning of the weekend one of these "that´s -amazing- conversations"
a guy phoned me in the middle of the night to have a talk with a friend. he kind of started sharing some deep stuff as i had to interrupt him telling him that i have actually no clue who he is - he was simply wrong connected. Couldn´t find the number of his friend in the phone book, so we just ended up talking about an hour...
really like this crazy lifestuff
(so far a contribution to the always actual topic of "why do stangers talk to me" :-)
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
mountains and goals
Was finally the weekend for walks with a friend in the mountains here,
listened later on to some audio plays for children with him
i didn´t know it before, so i had to get to know these series,
because it is quite famous here (i don´t want to be out:-)
and people love to sleep in while listening to this stuff
I´m quite done right now,
do you know these times when you´re just tired
it´s hard for you to get out of bed when you think of your to do list for the day
so you just stay in, in the stupid hope things get done by accident:)
i really find it hard to motivate myself when i´m blinded for the actual goal
i mean in how many things we do in our daily life are we constantly aware of why we do it and whats the big goal behind?
I don´t just wanna run around doing my stuff mindlessly (?)
but i also don´t want to think about everything
cos i figured myself being constantly on a metaperspective watching and reflecting myself
- that keeps you also from simply doing things, just because you feel like doing it...
mmph
hope you all have a nice week
listened later on to some audio plays for children with him
i didn´t know it before, so i had to get to know these series,
because it is quite famous here (i don´t want to be out:-)
and people love to sleep in while listening to this stuff
I´m quite done right now,
do you know these times when you´re just tired
it´s hard for you to get out of bed when you think of your to do list for the day
so you just stay in, in the stupid hope things get done by accident:)
i really find it hard to motivate myself when i´m blinded for the actual goal
i mean in how many things we do in our daily life are we constantly aware of why we do it and whats the big goal behind?
I don´t just wanna run around doing my stuff mindlessly (?)
but i also don´t want to think about everything
cos i figured myself being constantly on a metaperspective watching and reflecting myself
- that keeps you also from simply doing things, just because you feel like doing it...
mmph
hope you all have a nice week
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
January Days
saw yesterday little flowers on the light green gras
while walking under a clear blue sky,
think they are called daisys (?)
and a beautiful half frozen river rhine
always have to remind myself in all my business not to forget to go for walks just to enjoy some nature beauty stuff- yes, maybe we shouldn´t be afraid to be a little more hippie:)
I´m about to plan all kinds of things for moving
looking for new flatmates
finishing my studies
and really important: socialising
on sunday one guy whos coming since some weeks to the youthgroup came forward to tell that he gave his life to Jesus one random evening
I was like: you still do it, God. That´s amazing,
realising i still got my mindset it would be about us,
how we live church and stuff that attracts people
and surely that plays a role, but God is building his kingdom,
-simply. Despite of out-of-tune-worship and boring rooms
weak prayertimes and blokes like me.
He is doing it. He is grace.
Thank you
while walking under a clear blue sky,
think they are called daisys (?)
and a beautiful half frozen river rhine
always have to remind myself in all my business not to forget to go for walks just to enjoy some nature beauty stuff- yes, maybe we shouldn´t be afraid to be a little more hippie:)
I´m about to plan all kinds of things for moving
looking for new flatmates
finishing my studies
and really important: socialising
on sunday one guy whos coming since some weeks to the youthgroup came forward to tell that he gave his life to Jesus one random evening
I was like: you still do it, God. That´s amazing,
realising i still got my mindset it would be about us,
how we live church and stuff that attracts people
and surely that plays a role, but God is building his kingdom,
-simply. Despite of out-of-tune-worship and boring rooms
weak prayertimes and blokes like me.
He is doing it. He is grace.
Thank you
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
the random party conversations
...
" what are you drawing?"
"-don´t know-"
" looks like "jesus loves you" but no one understands"
...
" what are you drawing?"
"-don´t know-"
" looks like "jesus loves you" but no one understands"
...
Thursday, December 29, 2005
well,
the times i go back to some kind of originplace to the people who know me kinda better and whom i love it seems like i´m getting really thin skin,
some emotional
( and sarcastic to hide it)
u too?
there was christmess (as i love to call it:) and there were the traditional things i need for stability, thanx mom for making always the same food and the same cookies, i love it
and there was will over to spend some times with us - really nice-
my family was all that welcoming and relaxed as i maybe didn´t expected them to be,
because i´m stupid (see the selffullfilling prophesies)
i´m really stunned and talked too much
and i think we should spend much more time hugging, maybe
hope u all had some quality time
the times i go back to some kind of originplace to the people who know me kinda better and whom i love it seems like i´m getting really thin skin,
some emotional
( and sarcastic to hide it)
u too?
there was christmess (as i love to call it:) and there were the traditional things i need for stability, thanx mom for making always the same food and the same cookies, i love it
and there was will over to spend some times with us - really nice-
my family was all that welcoming and relaxed as i maybe didn´t expected them to be,
because i´m stupid (see the selffullfilling prophesies)
i´m really stunned and talked too much
and i think we should spend much more time hugging, maybe
hope u all had some quality time
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