zweitausend(N)ACHT: zweitausendNEU(n)

last saturday...


momma makes weihnachten
december is so hard to get in christmas mood as its usually
the busiest time studying and serving the tables
but we made an advent-calendar in our living commune
- a very nice german tradition: everyone of us bought some
little presents for the others and we hung them on a wall
so every day of december one of us can open a little present




i came home after, nicely cold and dark and empty flat
vivi wrote on the blackboard:
"2009: vulgär aber glücklich"
was soll man dazu noch sagen
Harald Martenstein: 2009; "I´ll kill that bitch!"

2008 was such a strange year
very slow, full of goodness life
still feels like I lost so much
jeg savner


but
i´m positive
also
cos I´m happy to announce Hope and Marek were born
babies make it all new

et, to

1 meritocracy
They tell me. The student magazines tell me. How to polish up ones CV. How to take care that there are no "holes". They all worked besides studying in some kind of relevant jobs. All the job offers seem to look for somebody else than me. Do I read enough newspaper? I´m afraid of assessment centers, yes I hate job interviews. I need time to become comfortable to show who I am and what I can. Somewhere out there there seems to be a strange group of elites who seem to be able to meet all the expectations, who seem to have the qualifications.
I know its bullshit. We are the people we have. And no one meets it all. But it seems to be the strategy of meritocracy. Always let people feel they are not enough, make them afraid of being dismissed. So we´ll adapt better, do more, learn more, strive to be better than anybody to have a second of safety. But true learning comes out of interest and curiousity and with the time needed.
- defrag my brain-

2 community
The girls. It´s so nice to be with them. To come home, to have common meals, to invite people. To know each other, so one starts to adapt a lot of ordinary daily actions, like setting a table how the other person likes it. To have night shifts together if one has to finish a paper. Yes, also being there when you don´t feel like.
And, its comfortable. So much that it also crazyly feels we have build up a world of our own in this city, made of work, uni, friendships, living commune. Spending less time with other friends. Being lazy to get to know new people. Not knowing what´s actually going on in the city.
People tell me they´ve been much more active, until they moved into a living commune which was really living community. Is this the dilemma of community living? Does it need explicit common purpose/goals/vision to not get stuck? Or is maybe the thought of needing something to achieve with community just meritocratic? Is being enough?

last autumndays

The last sunny autumndays have been overrun by snow
yeah, writing about weather always works

have been sitting in trains for some hours
yesterday early morning half asleep but eyes open
it has been so calming seeing the light moving
on all these snowy vinyards and small villages with castles

we were travelling to some conference presentingthe outcomes of our summerworkcamp to the people/organisation who have funded us
felt quite grown up

Last weekend we have been out having some wine at a local bar
nice sounding music from the cellar
the band situation leclerq still needed a sleeping place
I love to have people over
making coffee and waking up nearly strangers
just so

songs that struck me the last novemberdays
my body is a cage
that keeps me from dancing
with the one I love
but my mind holds the key (Arcade Fire)

allein, allein (Polarkreis 18)
aaahh video; band from place of belonging
Isn´t that Norway?

TREASURE HUNTING INSTEAD OF FAULT DIAGNOSTICS!
Schatzsuche statt Fehlerfahndung Eckhard Schiffer

october/november

Resa was over...thank you
sadly just for a short time, but good time ...double desserts and tea is good

body politics... see beneath

commune party... nothing as nice as being together with masses of people you like, dancing til morning, partying helps your non-existant cleaning schedule

starting final thesis... young refugees/ transnational/ education

all of my body rebells against cosmopolitan/Dein Arsch 2

Body politics and it´s impertinences, the 2nd:

("Achtung"=attention!/respect)to Penelope (1,5x 2m) by vivi

chair on italian women magazines by vivi

figures ...

all of my body rebells against cosmopolitan/ Dein Arsch 1

Body politics is still a topic in our commune
one action how we try to deal with daily cosmetical impertinences is:

Dislabel your products
and give them names you want them to have

dislabel your products Produkte ent-etikettieren
de-construct meaning Bedeutung dekonstruieren
de-frag your brain Gehirn defragmentieren

allowed- hair- nothing- else- shampoo

Exciting/tense skin body lotion

Ups and downs cellulite gel

Dat Kurze

today I´ve been with my friend at a ultra-sound- checkup
it gave me quite a good kick in my palm
I saw it´s heart beating
and the toes nearly in its mouth
"filled blatter", said the doctor
"its probably going to pee soon"

Rhine, don´t you do that to me!

the hours spend in the forests are not lost

It´s pumpkin time again.
Cutting whatever pumpkin in cubes
frying it quickly with some cubed onion
and thai red chilli paste (chillies, garlic, Galangal)
boiling it with some soy-sauce, coconut milk and water
mashing the soup
peanutbutter or ginger with itif we like it


Last weekend two of my former Danish studymates and
professors have been over
we had a seminar on social work in an age of globalisation
so nice to see them all again
and to discuss e.g. different integration-strategies for migrants in Europe
I remembered how I liked to study in Denmark
the time to read so much, to think and to discuss
not always produce, produce, produce papers as it is here
i finished my last procrastinal one
now ready for the final thesis


I liked Resas post to blog action day
there are a lot of small or bigger things we can do to minimize poverty

and keeping awareness

helping is powerful
in many ways

it also includes putting the helper in a powerful position
we help according to our own mindsets
to what we think is good

How do we actually know what poverty is?
Definitions are plenty,
one is that poverty is when you have less then ca. 45% (these numbers differ) of the average income of your country
another is that poverty is defined by not having enough to feed your body what it needs, etc. - this is what we most urgendly talk about: people dying from hunger.
It´s about inequality, the belief that every human life is precious, that we should have the same rights and chances making a good life. That we have responsibility to help each other when we are in need. (...)

Ulrich Beck, a german Sociologist wrote recently in "Die Zeit" that global social inequality actually becomes a (political) problem when morals or norms of equality spread. People born equal, are yet unequal according to national borders. National borders determine how we perceive social inequality. Social inequality becomes quickly a political problem within national borders,- but is stabilised at the same time (in the same thought)outside national borders. The system of inequality is legitimated by the achievement principle (Leistungprinzip) on the national level, and by the principle of the national state on the gobal level. (...)
Quite visible in our nowadays migration policitics. (A homepage where you can sign to stop the death trap at European borders.) And empire politics.


We need a stronger identification on the global than on the national level. Ironically financial crisis and climate desasters might help us with this.

Besides:
current music that strucks is Boxer from the national, brainy.

And we get more and more aware of the fact that "All our bodies rebell against cosmopolitan."

Bestandsaufnahme reloaded

(Manchmal, wenn man nachts nicht schlafen kann, schreibt es einfach nieder. Schon Wochen her. Und wenn man wieder nachts nicht schlafen kann, denkt man sich, man könne ja mal seine Umwelt mit diversen aufgeschriebenen Gedankenströmen belästigen, die man vielleicht später als halblöden Generationblablabla-wahnsinn abtun wird:)

Ich habe mich überwunden. Brav nochmal die Hochzeitshomepage meiner Freunde durchgeschaut, mich nochmal über die immense Geschenkeliste geärgert und den Toaster und Wasserkocher reserviert + bei Amazon bestellt. Brav die Bewertungen durchgelesen, in der Hoffnung, dass es ok ist, meinen Freunden einen Wasserkocher zu schenken, der nur 3 von 5 Sternen hat und nicht 5 von 5. (Diktat des Konsumenten.)
Es stößt mich schon ab.
Ich versuche es zu verstehen. Und doch ist es gegen mich. Der Gedanke an Hunderte von Toastern weltweit, die niemand braucht, und alle wollen neues. Ich mag unser Sammelsorium an alten und neuen Sachen hier, Geschenke, vom Flohmarkt, WG-nachlässe und von Leuten abgestaubt, die´s nicht mehr brauchen.

Heiraten und bumm ist alles da. Solls das sein?
Ich weiß, ich übertreibe.


Lied nr. 7 von der "The shins" CD isses grade voll.

Ich habe heute unsere Gewürze sortiert; schönere Behälter, langsamer Mononatriumglutamatausstieg. Fertigdressings und Knorr-Würzmischungen,- ich kann sie nicht mehr ertragen. UND ich brauche saubere Arbeitsflächen!

V. probt für ihr Vorsprechen. Ihr Zimmer ist "ein einziger Gedankenfluss". Auf riesigen Papierbögen steht in dicker Eddingschrift die Geschichte einer Vergewaltigung geschrieben. Die Wände sind damit tapeziert.
V.:"Meine Gefühle sind verschwunden. Die sind weg. Ausgekackt."
"Ich möchte keine Emotionen spielen, sondern hervorrufen."
Auch ich habe keine Gefühle mehr dazu. Das Stück ist schnell gelesen.
Was bilden wir europäische behütete Frauen uns eigentlich ein, das noch an die große Glocke zu hängen, wo es so sehr Lebensrealität von Frauen in der ganzen Welt ist?!?
Ist meine Vergewaltigung schlimmer als die einer Frau im Kongo?

Im Text heißt es: "Sie spreizen meine Beine. Ich habe Hosen an. Warum spreizen sie meine Beine, wenn ich Hosen an habe? Das ist schlimmer, als wenn ich nackt wäre."
Wir haben es nicht verstanden.

Werde ich jemals wieder in der Lage sein, wissenschaftlich zu schreiben?
Werde ich jemals wieder die Leute in meinem Herzen in meinem Herzen behalten können, präsent?

Wir haben ein Brett mit unseren Namen zum "benutzte Gläser" abstellen gebaut. Eine Maßnahme zur Vermeidung von Mega- Abwasch. Unsere Namen, die Namen der Love-Freunde und Fragezeichen. Man weiß ja nie. Wir sind so scheiße offen.

"...,manches war schwer auszusprechen, die Tage wurden zunehmend fremder,..."
(aus der Weltensammler, Ilija Trojanow)

rebellas and so forth

read an interesting article about machsomwatch.org
an organisation of israelian women who volunteer watching the checkpoints
and reporting on their homepage what they see

One conclusion of the interviewed volunteers:
„Über der ganzen Bedrohung durch Terrorismus verlieren wir unsere Moral.“
("Over all this threats of terrorism we loose our morals".)
So true for a lot of stuff going on in the "western world" nowadays.

I like this idea, keeping an eye on the things your government and the executives are doing, especially those actions you disagree with.
Guess in Germany we should do that more concerning the war in Afghanistan,
requiring more accountability from our politicians.
man, we all so forgot about it, not even recognising anymore when the parliament quickly passes bills about sending out more soldiers and so forth,- as it happened this summer without big public discussions. The question is left how to do that best.

Another interesting project pro asyl and some welfare organisations in Germany recently started is the "save- me - campaign" where they want to motivate citizens to plead and inform in their cities for a willingness to take up a certain "contingent" of refugees per year more than already. The contingent should consist of refugees having a refugee status under the geneva-convention and whose need for protection is declared as very immediate by the UNHCR.
Background to this campaign is also, that Germany due to the Dublin II convention takes up very few refugees who need help as so few people even make it to enter the borders.
Yep, thats about responsibility...

besides that it´s already far too late again

current favourite term: "nationalstaatliche Vergemeinschaftungszumutungen" (Hormel/Scherr, 2004) / "national collectivisation impertinences"

favourites for working times and being alone, still
Erol Alkan- Mix hot chip boy from school
Beyond the wizards sleeves - Remix Midlake-Roscoe

life is not a ponyfarm

last friday it happened
we had the big DK-re-uinon
our doorbell rang and i just heard some voices singing
a very funny german "Schlager"
My beloved former spanish flatmates and a friend of them came to visit
and oh surprise also larsi-parsi- the dutch one joined

it was so exciting and beautiful to see them all again
to recognise all these small things again which we got to know
from sharing our lives for half a year

how they eat their bread, how they wake up, how one covers his toothbrush always wish some tissues, they way they express themselves
and these awesome questions (during visiting our city): "Two rivers? Why?"
we played Koehandel, like in old times
I love all these details
we went to the vinyards eating the most juicy and sweet grapes ever
small roadtripping in Germany and to Holland



and, of course we went out a lot
the first evening all 4 put on these overalls in pink, green, red and blue. People in the city and club started talking to them,- it´s so easy to astonish people and make them smile.


And sure the last after them leaving days I´ve been sad.
Missing people sucks. And sometimes realizing that things aren´t the same as they used to be.
But yes, good times come to an end. Other good times come.

Anyway
it really feels like summer is over
time to start working and getting in some rythm again
to meet with the friends that came back from all over
and to have some onioncake and "federweißer" (young wine)
together

(Pictures by Ricky)

harvest

so
the experiment of planting something on our iny balcony was fun
we really have some great red hot peppers, and the squash- plant had lots of nice flowers, and gave birth to one fruit which actually looks like a pumpkin and is pretty hard- I´ll guess, we´ll taste it and decide then what we think it might be most. we proudly present:




Yesterday night i found a good board on the street, I brought it with home to see if I can build something "kitchen working space" with it- we sawed it, covered it with adhesive book-foil and put in a grand-mommy- style some fabric to it



I really like the experiment to try building just with things we find or we already have at home, Re-use!

what also happened
I´ve been lately on a concert of the Band efterklang
I haven´t heard music like that for a while
8 people, all playing different instruments and all singing , partly like a choir, man it´s been beautiful

and
what i lately like to watch on youtube is memri TV
its the middle -east-research institute who subtiteles sequences of arab TV
it´s so interesting to see some of the talkshows where e.g. the hijab is discussed
the good thing i see about it is, that it broadens our picture of the arab world
its shows the different people, opinions, the discourses taking place=> against the mono-picture a lot of western media try to paint of the arab and muslim world.
Though I lately read that memri mostly translates the sequences which show muslims in a negative light, so surely one has to be aware what kind of picture it paints. But as I´m not able to understand Arab, its a good opportunity for me to understand at least something and it´s interesting to follow a lot of the discussions from women on their own rights.

Sammelsorium

it's kind of shocking how quickly the days come sun sets around 8 pm.
the days just float by, working and not managing to write a paper i wanted to write
-actually i don't want to write, which might be the reason i don't get to write it

Besides that there is always time having good food with friends
which might sometimes leave the "guilty" feeling of being lazy
but in the end I guess i'm glad about the days i rather spent with friends
than with my dear laptop

currently I'm residing in my beloved city DD
and went with my dear pregnant friend Joce shopping,
one of the good things about current fashion which we like is that pregnancy-bellies fit under nice bubbly dresses which are also wearable in daily non-pregnant-life, - this is one aspect what i understand by the concept of "sustainability".
we found quite some stuff which definitely gets the certificate of being a nice "prego".
during shopping we saw masses of girls/"young women" being pregnant or young dads carrying really small babies in scarfs on their bodies. A friend of mine commented on this; people just move to this part of the city to get babies.
Yes it can feel strange to have a flat tammy.

besides that I happen to be at one wedding after the other
which is nice and strange
its those lazy summer evenings, when you wander tired through the streets of a home town
it turns me all quiet, and things are hard to realise
but it's nice to dance with my shiny beautiful bridal friends.

home is people

the time has been intense
somehow people all over the world seem to be able to play basketball, soccer or chess
we always found something to do together

and they told us how the Yesidis get under a series of violence attacks in Iraq
a year ago on the 14th of August 2007 the villages El Khatanijah and El Adnanijah got attacked by suicide bombings
over 500 people died

we lit some candles for his killed brother and friends
they wanted us to know about it
and I realised I had never even really heard of this religious group
has it been big in the media, as it should be?

and the young guys from Iran who don´t see any future for themselves
there
and so many more stories

and easy times with painting the walls and lots of laughing


It was soo nice to come home after this time
having a real bed and shower
and big windows
its so beautiful here

vivi wrote on the blackbord in our flat for us:
"mein zuhause kommt nach hause"
(my home is coming home)
yes

it´s just pure happiness

as we painted altogether this huge paper
the small kids with green hands
lots of hearts with arabic names in it
"love russia"
and
"love for all, hatred for none"
yes, it sounds hippie and we don´t care

big handclapping when we hang it up in the café of the
asylum seekers centre

the men from syria started to sing so beautifully in the night
and we gathered all around dancing and clapping
man, how i loved it

the girl from the states has spend the whole evening talking to the old lady who recently fled from Iraq, it seemed to be good for both

the russian workcamp participants hanging out a lot with the young people from tschetschenia,

and we are just standing here and it feels like a dream coming true
I feel at place in the middle of all these amazing people,
and it seems like the majority has this experience too

"when you guys are here, i don´t care about what has happened in the past
and don´t worry about the future, I just live in this moment"
i just feel gratitude, that we can give each other these moments

week two to go

the summers

suomi has been nice
very light, relaxing and foody
some strange people let me pick tons of strawberries on their field for little money as i asked them
the countryside has been full of violet flowers
and a kid asked on the airplane: "mama, why are there so many trees here? And why is it all needle tress?" (Are there short answers for that?)
(Mama, where do seeds come from? From bread!)

Saw the crazy anime.freak finnish teenagers on streets,
met an philipine nanny,
a small boy speaking finnish and french asking me why i´m not able to do the same, i said: well i never learned, he kept on asking me why and finally you end up really asking yourself: yes, why the heck did they not teach us all the languages in the world...

back in saksa
today: start of the workcamp
there they are all downstairs now
we all try to communicate somehow
the taiwanese guy with excellent english watched how we make our slices of breads to do so himself
I have never seen anybody washing apples that carefully.
The quiet russians, the extroverted spanish girls ("I am desaster"), the so US girl, and an always smiling swiss boy
loking forward to what the next weeks will bring

we watched this documentary tonight about sexual violence on women and girls in the democratic republic of congo (former zaire).

there are no words for this.

The bodies of women and girls always have been battlefields in wars,
cos with destroying women, nobody wants to marry them, nobody takes care of the farming,
the kids get traumatized- it´s in fact a very effective way of destroying a whole community and society.
They have hospitals where women can get medical help, they can only take "the hard cases" as there are so many who have suffered and still suffering sexual violence. After the hospital they have to send the women back home, again in danger:
"there is no where we can go"

The leader of the hospital said; if the international society knows of this, the UN, and all kinds of media have written about this dramatic situation, how can it just stay like that?
Everybody knows about it, and nothing changes.

This is where we sit again, f* don´t know what to say or do
this is a homepage giving some information about, there is also a petition to sign

in the meantime it just feels so fake thinking about a current discussion about a phenomena called "new feminism" taking place in Germany
it started with some books called "alphagirls", etc.
the main threads seemed to be like:
- the twenty/thirty-something girls woke up and realised, hey we don´t feel unequal treated anymore, but there are much more subtile structures of discrimination nowadays- find out about and act against
- old feminist stuff is not hip- Alice Schwarzer (one of THE feminist icons of Germany) is out and not up to date; the new feminists want it to be fun, be sexy (porn is ok) and still want to claim equality
- how the heck to put having kids, drinking caffe latte with friends and making career in a 24 hour day, (and to look good in the same time)
-...
Important points so far:
Read two critisisms of this "movement" lately:
1: feminism light: the autor claims the new feminsim is kind of wannabe
- it stays just wannabe-provocative in the sex-corner
- or gets caught by the "nice girl trap" (girl still want men to approve them- so they bring on appealing behaviour again, as they have learned and always done it)

2. Mely Kiyak critisises the new feminism as far away from reality
and just a debate from christian, white, middle-class women who think about which kindergarden is best or if parental leave fits together with their life plans
forgetting that there is quite big group of women in the country who are not eben able to ask those questions as they only fight for enough money to live, being allowed to go studying, or getting out of violent relationships.
priviledged women write about feminism, without taking the battle especially of migrant women into consideration, which is often also a battle of class and ethnicity than just gender.

in the new we-women-feeling, those were left out who were not considered as "we" anyway?

i´m off to suomi

now

the other afternoon
´ve been sitting with a friend on my cosy couch trying to finish some papers
we just all had some nice summer lunch
cooked potatoes, "quark", fresh vegetables and some smoked salmon
love it
with six girls
like nearly every day

thought about how much it has become a lifestyle of us
to work, eat, shop, go running,... together

and how it can be so home, ordinary, yet special
but also hard, sometimes, to allow people being close to you

we´ve been some days in beautiful france, bourgogne
small car, small house in the mountains, some girls, good food
loads of garlic and wine
no make-up and being as loud as we want to
yes, good days

got a new link: zimmer 117 is a group of photographers
from this city and the capital
some are friends
all are talented indeed

´ve been a weekend in northern Germany
meeting my old living commune from HH
and dear friends Resa and Krister on their trip
round the baltic sea, - nice and chill time
also great to get to know the 24-7-community there
so hospitable
it´s been really interesting to hear about their plans...

on the trip back i went with a guy
who drove 250 on the highway (yes i like that)
and teached me about all the mistakes other car-drivers
do- feel much more smart now

back here
got a really bad cold, have no clue where from
and it really sucks as i have so much stuff to do:(
anyway, hope it will get better soon
and i also hope i soon will start studying effectively again:)

running

we did it... 21 kilometers 2 h 06min
ca. 2500 people
super adrenalin kick

planting

planted some more herbs, flowers, chillies and zucchini today
small balcony, - will see if it gets enough sun to grow
planting makes the day to a productive one

some friends and i spent the weekend at a wonderful
organic little farm a living commune keeps together,
really like those places where you can feel some people came together to
make a life thats meaningful to them ...


we had there some training for organizing and leading workcamps
if you are interested in taking part in the work camp
you can email me and i give you more information :)
(taking place between the 2nd and 16th of August in Germany
Topic: seeking asylum- unknown neighbors
for taking part you need to be between 18 and 26 years old
- a workcamp means living together with an international groups
for some weeks and doing some meaningful work-)

may...

had some interesting days with mongolian youthworkers
i wrote their names on my hand to be able to remember them
beautiful language
sounds like a mixture of finish and icelandic i thought
super nice people, and cool humour
we talked about the current challenges for young people in mongolia
an new increasing problem trafficking seems to be, to China, Hong Kong and Taiwan

would be interesting to visit this country one day

read recently in some of those blogs
http://blogsbyiranians.com/
Iran has a really active blogging scene, which is quite engaged and respectless

" Here i am again,after a rather long time i feel i can write again.Tehran is so hot. 42c today and will be 44 tomorrow. i cant stand my clothes, this nasty hijab bothers me everyday and every minute and every moment of the day! hurts my body and my soul. but it doesnt keep me from being active, im not dead tired yet.i go to work everyday, while my male colleagues wear cool Tshirts, i have to stand my heavy warm dark long clothes. i also dont forget to wear my mask, a kind of behaviour mask, showing yourself what you really are not! the first thing you learn in iran is how to "Pretend!". its more essential for life than water is! you choose a kind of role that keeps you safe. like the one i chose, a calm serious girl who doesnt think of anything but her work, someone who obeys well with a very simple routine life! and god! how much i hate telling lie! its so difficult to play the role you are not! little by little, you find out that all other people around you are wearing masks too, and you see eachother everyday and work in the same place but never have the chance of knowing eachother truly. the hope for finding real friends is lost for ever. life is so artificial. no smell, no color, no beauty." by http://iranian-girl.blogspot.com/ (from July 16th 2005)

lazy afternoon with taggging "the notwist" in the last fm-radio
so good to have the girls here
so freeing to scream around harsh songlyrics together in the eves
when its necessary

anybody going to Roskilde festival?

sun is coming
yippie yay

had the other weekend some kind of "arty-party" in our house
was so nice
loads of people
dancefloor in the kitchen
with drum´n´bass and Balkan music
photoexhibition
collective painting in one room
a friend did some readings from his writings in the other
a sticker action
videos
making origami out of EKG-paper
flashed with happiness

currently we are about to organize a seminar on
"challenges in international social work"
the participants are from Luxemburg and Mongolia
if thats not exotic... :)

have to write a paper about an
interesting aspect of elementary education
found somewhere in Europe
could also be concerning older kids...
Any ideas?

productivity

a phase of (in my opinion) extreme unproductivity hopefully slowly seems to end
we declared the word "productivity" to the "un-word" of our living commune
scientist might call this lazyness "procrastination"

BUT

there´s a great song of the german band Tocotronic
" ...ja ich habe heute nichts gemacht,
ja meine Arbeit ist vollbracht,
ich atme nur
ich atme nur..."

("...yes i´ve done nothing today,
yes my work is completed
i just breathe,
i just breathe...")

it´s fun to be on parties trying to smalltalk without the question
"And what are you doing?"
Good alternatives:
Have you already eaten today?
Any siblings?
How did you get to know each other?

I´m a feminist

last saturday was womens day

the news remembered:
in europe Statistics show that for women between 16 and 44 years of age, domestic violence is thought to be the major cause of death and invalidity, ahead of cancer, road accidents and even war.

hellloooooooooo?
this basicly means: home (and a love relationship) is the most dangerous place where a women can be...
isn´t that shocking

besides:
statistics show that in Germany women still earn 25% less then men, though they are better educated, have better qualifications then men and so forth,
I´m not talking about the issue of women having more part time jobs and men being more often in the leading offices, NO!
Its usual that a women with the same qualification and experince as a man, having the exact same job, tasks, role and position, yes in the same company!- often get up to 500 or 600€ less payment than men. And women simply get offered less payment already at job interviews than men, just because. Because why?
People see reasons for this in the old role picture, the image that women only need to earn supplementary payment, ect. And companies use women to simply not to have that many staff expenses i guess.

YES, its time for a new feminism. With this I don´t mean women trying to be like men, anti-men thinking or stuff like that.
According to the Encyclopedia Britannica feminism is simply the belief in the social, economic, and political equality of the sexes. So hard?
Equality is actually not enough, we need the same appreciation and acknowledgement for women than for men. And we need more male feminists, this is not just a cause for women to fight for themselves. We need protection.

And especially "the christian world" has to take a very clear stand in that. To long violence was not discussed, feminism was seen as "bad", and unjust actions were tolerated under the belief that women should submit to men. Come on! Submission is a different discussion. This is about equal treatment, and basicly the right to live.

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sina mina

times have been lazy but intense
had some great days in Denmark
so nice to meet again with friends there

so nice to bike around in the city
with radioheads in rainbows in my ears
to speak Danish
another unforgettable tjilipop night
thanks

but the atmosphere on the streets was kind of strange some days
there were some new demos and small riots going on because
the moslem population felt offended by the newspapers reprinting the muhammed-caricatures
of Kurt Westergaard, and there was also this case going on with two man who got arrested for planning to kill Kurt Westergaard, big issue cos on according to the danish anti-terror act they can just be deported without a court hearing.
People, please don´t lets damage our constitutional states by the fear of terror
was just so sad to feel all this negative tension on the street
and there seems no easy way out of it...

besides
fighting with writing papers
cut myself a fringe/bangs (in German "pony")
quote of the week (my flatmate to me) "tabea, you are my private life!"
i also had my dear friend Jocelyn and her husband over for some days
so nice to have some time with them, (i recognise a certain tendency that i don´t get visits from just my friends anymore but them as a couple...)
we jumped around on our huge fortress (you know the difference between a fortress, a fort, a castle and a "burg"?)

Compliment of the week (which my flatmate got on a party): "everybody here just sucks, except of you!"
We should make more compliments to each other...

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lectures are over and i am, too
since i started to relax some days
it feels like i can´t put myself to any kind of work anymore
sucks!
also all my flatmates left me that weekend, you can´t do that to me
it turns me to a total weirdo trampy girl

its "rosenmontag" and all the annoying carnival stuff is going on
I should really get out of here soon...

suomi or how to put 1/1000 of ones daily thoughts in one blogentry

last week i came back from some days in suomi
skipped some days of uni
it was so dark (for me at least) - so those days were a lot of rest
spend some God days on a turku island
tilsammens of 24-7 scandinavia


some reflections...
i felt pretty unprepared this time
and not like i could contribute something
(blabla)
Gods presence was there and it was so good to hear whats going on in the different countries
and yes this time there were some Danes and it was so nice to speak some Danish again with the dry Danish humour as well as hearing new stories

and Iceland/Isisland you kick me off
watch the sigur ros video "heima"
Yes God puts facettes of his whoaaa beauty in different places and people
and the simple sentence "it was beautiful" can mean so much more than usual if an icelandic person is saying it
yes and it feels so right to have those gentle, introverted americans going there
peacefully without having everything planned or managed, takk
i´m excited to hear the news

there was also some prayer about the hospitality of scandinavia which really spoke to me
I thought of those countries like sweden that have taken up so many refugees in history
but it doesnt seem like european policies as well as other current
developments do encourage that...
i believe there is a big responsibility on our countries to be places of refuge

Had also some more days in Helsinki with awesome Laura, Tytti and Milka
the girls gave me such a blast of goodness
we just had loads of sleep, food, laughter, and a beautiful walk on this
on island (suomalainen?) sooooo nice
and the girls even gave me a roadtrip to tampere (thanks to karoliina)
so early in the morning, thats true sacrifice

so I´m at my desk again
worrying about some elections tomorrow
in hessia
the christian- conservatives must not win!
they created so much bad populism around
young migrants,- its just so shameful ...
i so hope they won´t get a sign that they can suceed with this kind of policy

these processes are scary
daily racism in policy you can see
rising up in different countries of europe again
arghh, it makes me throw up
lets be aware of these processes

anyway, nice weekend to you.
my flatmates are so loud.
our new favourite word is:
"erkenntnisresistente Kackbratze!".
AND we will have a curry gathering tonight!

new year and stuff like that

2007...
it has been such an ambivalent beast
guess i never worked that hard- and felt like being so lazy at the same time, travelled so much, doubted so much, got amazed so many times,
felt so grown up and small again, bought my first pumps (which i see for myself as some kind of outer indicator in the process filled with hope of becoming a lady ...somewhen)
have been in about 22 different cities/places, residing in 2 countries
moved 3 times
those pathetic numbers cannot show what happened inside me anyway
quite a lot of things still seem unclear
left to say is i´m so thankful
takk